Hi, and welcome to the Forum. Here you will find a lot of friends and support, including people with a great deal of knowledge about certain additives medications an how to withdrawal from them. I can relate to you in some way. I'm 51 years now, but when I was 22, my younger brother was already married, so dis most of my relatives, at that time I was living my life like a Casanova, but felt the pressure of the "traditional" family to get married, so I did, but I picked the wrong apple. The marriage was completely dysfunctional, but lasted cause of the 3 children I had during it.My parents divorced when I was 5 years old so the presence of my father was none, to say the least.I didn't want my kids to go thru what I went so I maintained married for 15 years, big mistake, that woman is bipolar and very dangerous, drove me almost crazy, to the point I tried to commit suicide, wope up 7 days later of a coma in a hospital, since then I'm not the same, I have physicals disorders ( mainly accute depression a bit of schizoid personality, so that means, I don't like to hang aroud socially, I'm more of a kind of reclusive type, don't go out much, ect, get the picture. I got hooked on Fioricet( a pain killer for migraine( the active ingredients are butabarbital and codeine) for more than 10 years taking at the end 13 or 14 pills a day, tried to stop cold turkey twice, both had seizures. Finally while hospitalized for a cardiac disorder I got another seizure(the lack of Fioricet) and when the issue came out I told the doctor about my pill abuse. He gave fenobarbital, dunno mgs, via IV, dreasing for 3 days, I had vomits, sweating, paranoid or demential dreams, whatever you call it: you can difference the dream from reality, but after 3 days, all was gone. Never touched that pill again.
Well, dammit, I made it too long, LOL. The point is that is Ok to relapse, you are only human and humans make mistakes, just pick your self togheter again and start all over. I relapsed w? Vicodin? Tramadol and Xanax and I'm trying now to get rid of them , but one at a time, and slowly, take whatever time it takes, to avoid seizures and possibly any symptoms of W/D. Count on me if you need someone to talk too, my daughter while in her teenager years experimented w/ some drugs and we were always very comunicative and open and I helped a lot at that time, know she is helping me, that' karma ;)
Take care and good luck
Bob
Hi,
Welcome! You have a whole forum full of people who do that for each other every day. Its really great becasue whenever you need to talk there's usually someone here. You can get a lot of information and support here.
I have to say though, it would be tough living with your mom and her having pills all the time and staying clean.
No one will judge you or criticize you. We are all the same. So just keep posting and you will find more than one friend, I can guarantee you that.
Good luck sweetie, my name is Melissa. If you need anything, I'm here as well as a lot of wonderful understanding people.