how can i stop doing this?

[indulgence27]

Hi everyone
plz bear with me.as where to start..well about 8yrs back i started on the dhc first due to a bad back.but then because they made my panics better and meant i could go out etc.i took them everyday. a friend after about 2 yes introduced me to oxyconton..bit mistake..ive been to the level of 300mg to 400 a day.!! I know its shocking.
well about two days ago i stoped taking them and because I felt so crap by today i went into cupboard and got my dhc 30mg and since 5am this morning ive had about 800mg worth :( bear in mind my opiod tolerance is very high due to years and time on oxys..its cost me my money,but maybe in worst one as ive kept all family and friends out of the loop..i really need so advice as ro how many dhc to take to taper of in time..but i don't want to taper on oxys as in not strong enough to have and take few..cud i taper of oxys with dhc? But not as many as ive taken today ?  Just goes to show how high my tolerance is if today I've taken about 800mg of dhc and feel nothing ;( excuse mistakes as in on phone as dont want family looking over my shoulder if i was on comp :(..

[indulgence27]

To add my hubby as them to stop me going to cupboard for them..i don't have them..

[indulgence27]

To add my hubby as them to stop me going to cupboard for them..i don't have them..

[indulgence27]

Hi just to let you know how my day gone well like I've said no one knew about my problem.and up untill Thursday it was oxycontin 300 to 400mg aday but on Thursday night i decided enough is enough and had nothing Friday and come yesterday morning as i posted by teatime id taken loads of dyc...so this morning i sat hubby down and told him the lot.everything.he cudnt belive ot.because i think id also kidded myself beliving becuz i hold down full time job got daughter in uni and maybe cuz i didn't inject etc..i stupidly beloved i wasn't that addicted or a junkie..but i am addicted badly.so this is what im going to do.let me know if think its not right way..i start on Tuesday my new job which is a promation.so jive decided to taper.as i feel a full wd will be to much and due to work.so in dropping a lot i just don't know if its right way.so any advice id be grateful..im going to have 80 mg a day but in two 40 mg doses but today I've only had 40mg so far.im feeling achy muclea.sweats.but as my partner said yes I've had 40 today but ive had none since Thursday eve..sat i had dhc so maybe that's why i feel wd are bad but not mega bad as ppl say come day three they shud be?.wud this be becuz i had shc yesterday ? Anyway I've had 40mg of oxy today and two parocetomal in going to see if i can get through today on just the 40mg..im i doing the right thing anyone? .

[MsSally]

Indulgence, remember we are all different. What doesn't harm 1 can harm another. Not saying that to scare you, but for you not to justify a dose. Do you have the strength to taper? Can you resist going to the cupboard when the w/d's kick in? I've heard tapering is a God send as well as a dance with disaster if you can't stick to it, as it does drag out the w/d process. There will be nothing pleasant in the first week of detox and that is where weakness hits hardest. Do me a favor and just breath. Calming moments. You are strong and going to beat this demon. Keep posting and keep a journal. What you took, what time and why? How you're feeling. What is your daily goal, did you meet it? I did this and looking back at day 2 and 3 its hard to believe that was me.

[indulgence27]

Ive just seem someone's post on this site and for five years every day they have taken more than ive taken today in diyhdro,s..so now in not so scared..but i do still want to stop this as its normally oxy that's my drug and i just took the diyhdro,s,s today..as had some im cupboard as got scared about just stoping the oxys hence reason in asking if its safe to do this..

[indulgence27]

Ive just looked into why this amount of diyhdro,s does t affect me.because the amount of oxy,i take my body tolerance is so high.whoch isn't good i know..but in scared if i stop everything will it be dangerous? Ive only taken the diyhdro,today as out of oxy,sbut that what I was asking shud i get more oxys and taper? Or use the diyhdro,sin lot smaller dose to taper of oxys or shud i just have nothing? Any advice id be gratefull.
thanks..

[indulgence27]

Id really like your help and advice bigdaddy..also well done on being free from this awfull thing..

[indulgence27]

The diydromcodine is prescribed but the oxy isn't..ive got no.more oxys none at all..and i don't want anymore..i do however have diyhdrocodeines as these i have precrip for..wud it be dangerous for me to stop all together..i know today I've not od by skin of my teeth..this reason i don't want to have another day like this..or be on these devils anymore..

[indulgence27]

I know its terrible and i know im addicted hence reason tomorrow thats it.
in done.dhc sorry is diyhdrocodeine
30mg ir.ive had nothing since.5pm today its now 10pm..i don't want to carry on taking these any of these..the oxys or diyhdrocodeine.. IM scared and worried at how addicted i am..please dont tell me scarey stories about od.i know this but ill only stay awake all night worring about what ive taken today.this is why im asking on here..what wud be best due to my high tolerance and addictionn ? To taper down on the dyhdrocodeines.? Or just stop.as i really don't want this life no more:(

[Bigdaddy1313]

I googled dhc and I see it is just another opiate. You are playing with fire and even though you say you have high tolerance you don't know at what point are you going to kill yourself. Are you willing to be another statistic, another person who had a bright future yet you gave that future away for a drug. Please don't let addiction take your happiness, health and your life.

[Bigdaddy1313]

Indulgence, I am not sure what dhc is? what it for? is it prescribed? what does are you suppose to be taking? How much are you presently taking? I do know basically all there is to know about oxys or pain medication in general. What I mean I know what it does to you. No one can take pain meds for a long period of time and not become addicted or dependent. Your pain pill dosage is really high and really dangerous!!! I know this because when I was held in bondage by oxys I was taking 400-500 mg each day. When I went into the E,R after having a seizure I was grossly addicted to oxys and benzo's (Xanax). The E.R doctors were amazed that I was not dead. I'm going to jump ahead and if you want to post back and forth I would be happy too. On May 13th it will be 16 months since I took my last Xanax and Pain Pill. Today my life is awesome and I am truly happy. I love to wake up in the morning instead of coming to from a drug induced coma. I still have my share of problems and challenges but those challenges are actually a pleasure to work through sober. My best day high ***** compared to my worst day sober. You can have this blessing I have (Being clean, sober, and happy) but it is not going to come for free. You are going to have to take some important steps. Please let me know if you want this gift and if you want a little bit of help from me. Peace