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i was addicted to almost 900 mgs a day of oxycontins,percocets and vicodins 25 pills, not anymore
i sit here and read everyones posts and folks feel when there at rock bottom and in withdrawl you think you are alone..in that moment in that very moment is when you find your inner strangth you must not give in, no matter how hard it is. ever since i have joined this forum i spill a little more guts on here because ive kept it in so long..
i remember 2 life changing things that happend to me while i was hooked on narcotics. it was in my 3rd year of poping pills i ran out of my scripts to soon and my doctor declined my med refills, he left me stranded and hooked on meds and he knew it, so i wonderd to baltimore maryland, looking for pills.
well i ran into to someone selling them i gave him 300.00 for a bag full of oxycontins for a good price, so gave him my money i heard the famous ill be back. i was waiting in a heroin hotel watching people shoot up and i just kept saying to my self my god what am i doing?
so after 2 hours later he no showed so knowing my self i went looking for him and found him down the street with gang bangers. i was withdrawling and dident care for trouble with no words said i was shot 2 times. in my chest and in my leg.
they ran away and no one cared. someone dragged me into an alley and picked my pockets. i sat there bleeding for about 30 minutes. until that voice in my head said get your *** up..and mind you i walked to the hospital in baltimore city. withdrawling badly shaking badly throwing up while i walked. they treated me went into surgery and of course i stopped withdrawling due to morphine and other meds. left the next day stiched up and some scripts. no i was alone my wife had no idea my family had no idea. all alone.
2nd time pretty much i found myself lying facedown in a puddle of my own vomit and urine. that moment that very moment, i swear on my life i saw an angel it said its not my time yet. after that time i have been sober for 2 years going on 3. i stopped cold turkey...so the next time when your alone and withdrawling trust me you are not alone in that moment you need to search for your soul and god and in that moment is when he will speak to you. but you have to surrender yourself and put your life in his hands.
i was addicted to this devils drug for 6 1/2 years and im clean now for almost 3 years soon. it can be done if you believe in your self. you are the only one who can do it no one else can do it for you. give god a chance everyone thinks he ignores people or he dosent exsists, well my friends i will say he does exsisits, he puts us through our trials. everyone has to carry there cross, and if i can i will help you carry it. dont give up dont give in. i was on a roll after i stopped my first year i thought if i could stop oxys at 9 80mgs a day and 15 pers and vics on top of that i can stop smoking, well i havent had a cigarette in about a year. im picking my life up right where i left off, ive enrolled back into semi pro football i go for training in a month, from originally almost paralyized from the waist down from a concussion of the spinal cord and 2 lower herniated discs, i have no problems now. im ready to go..trust me people i am already helping 3 other people on my treatment plain and instantly they feel much better. and like i said before when your ready im right here to help you carry your cross
i remember 2 life changing things that happend to me while i was hooked on narcotics. it was in my 3rd year of poping pills i ran out of my scripts to soon and my doctor declined my med refills, he left me stranded and hooked on meds and he knew it, so i wonderd to baltimore maryland, looking for pills.
well i ran into to someone selling them i gave him 300.00 for a bag full of oxycontins for a good price, so gave him my money i heard the famous ill be back. i was waiting in a heroin hotel watching people shoot up and i just kept saying to my self my god what am i doing?
so after 2 hours later he no showed so knowing my self i went looking for him and found him down the street with gang bangers. i was withdrawling and dident care for trouble with no words said i was shot 2 times. in my chest and in my leg.
they ran away and no one cared. someone dragged me into an alley and picked my pockets. i sat there bleeding for about 30 minutes. until that voice in my head said get your *** up..and mind you i walked to the hospital in baltimore city. withdrawling badly shaking badly throwing up while i walked. they treated me went into surgery and of course i stopped withdrawling due to morphine and other meds. left the next day stiched up and some scripts. no i was alone my wife had no idea my family had no idea. all alone.
2nd time pretty much i found myself lying facedown in a puddle of my own vomit and urine. that moment that very moment, i swear on my life i saw an angel it said its not my time yet. after that time i have been sober for 2 years going on 3. i stopped cold turkey...so the next time when your alone and withdrawling trust me you are not alone in that moment you need to search for your soul and god and in that moment is when he will speak to you. but you have to surrender yourself and put your life in his hands.
i was addicted to this devils drug for 6 1/2 years and im clean now for almost 3 years soon. it can be done if you believe in your self. you are the only one who can do it no one else can do it for you. give god a chance everyone thinks he ignores people or he dosent exsists, well my friends i will say he does exsisits, he puts us through our trials. everyone has to carry there cross, and if i can i will help you carry it. dont give up dont give in. i was on a roll after i stopped my first year i thought if i could stop oxys at 9 80mgs a day and 15 pers and vics on top of that i can stop smoking, well i havent had a cigarette in about a year. im picking my life up right where i left off, ive enrolled back into semi pro football i go for training in a month, from originally almost paralyized from the waist down from a concussion of the spinal cord and 2 lower herniated discs, i have no problems now. im ready to go..trust me people i am already helping 3 other people on my treatment plain and instantly they feel much better. and like i said before when your ready im right here to help you carry your cross
dont be afraid anymore of the withdrawls. very simple ways to overcome addiction when you are not scared when you are ready lets have a chat. cause i gurantee and whatever your choice of drug is i will help you get through. there is no reason to be afraid, you wont die but youll feel like it, its just a feeling and the feeling will go away
anytime my friend its a hell of a ride but it can be done. it dosent take that long for overcoming the withdrawls its just your mind power thats the toughest. and trust me i know i have withdrawled so many times its not funny. the body will go through shock and it will feel like its dying. but just like the planets in our solar system they go through there natural healing process from shock to bad from bad to good from good to stable..
wow thats some crazy **** im proud of u i am tryin to get away from percs 10/325 and i no its gonna be hard but ur story has inspired me and makes me believe its possible to do it all by myself but if i do need help carryin that cross i will definitely contact u thank u so much
amen to that. good for you stick to it dont give up your almost there you should start putting those vitamens back into your system give your body back what it needs to survive. and you will shine
congrats man your story is epic and full of truth, this **** grabs you by the balls and you have to do what you can to get free. mind body and spirit strength is needed to overcome this ****, it will not be given to anyone. I am 6 days clean and sticking to it , I have a long road but day by day is all I care about at this point.
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