im free

[erric111]

today i can say im free from the clutches of opiates..i never thought i could quit cold turkey, but i did it..thanks to my wife and this website i am clean!! i was taking about 25 10/325 percs a day..i felt like if i didnt stop id DIE..no joke i really used to say are these 10 pills im taking gonna kill me this time..i never od or came close..but i knew in the back of my mind it was coming soon..so the other day i decieded NO MORE..i didnt make another dr appiontment, i just said f-it..the next 2 days were terrible, but i stuck it out and now i can say IM FREE..so everyone out there that are on day 1 thru 4 goodluck it is possible to get off these pills that are pure poison..goodluck everyone..

[erric111]

thanks to you and everyone on here i can truely say im free..thank you..ill keep posting i hope you do too

[donewitis]

So glad to read this, how well you are doing..really amazing. Keep on keepin' on!

[erric111]

today i have a full week clean of those f-ing pills..thank god..to everyone who was there threw my first couple days know it was terrible..but i stuck it out and feel btr and btr everyday..i went to my 2nd na meeting last night..i was welcomed with open arms, really cool people..no judging there..i cant say how important a support group is..without it i know ill be in the same boat soon enough..i wont let that happen this time..never kicked c/t before always w/suboxone..i think thats what made me keep going back, knowing ill just go on suboxone..which if you dont ween off youll be detoxing just as bad as on oxy..i have never went threw the w/ds so bad before, and i think that is whats making me so empowered..i have such clarity right now..its amazing since if been looking threw a fog for so long..fight the good fight everyone even if its minute by minute..love you guys on here, couldnt have done it without you..

[erric111]

thanks..i have such a possitive outlook on things right now, its scary..on the pills i didnt care about anything except taking more..now i cant believe i even acted anything like that..i dont want to get ahead of myself but i know this time its over..i just have to remember that today i wont go to the dr or take anything..tomorrow is tomorrow and ill deal with it then..good luck everyone..godbless

[dominosarah]

What a fantastic update erric!!!  Way to go!!

[erric111]

awesome..definitly go, its so worth it..i was so nervous walking in but within 5 min i felt right at home..if you dont wanna share at 1st fine, just stay and listen ans you'll realize your not alone and dont have to do this alone..goodluck and keep posting..it really helps me..

[donewitis]

That;s great to hear. I found one close by to where I live and will be going tonight.

[erric111]

i went to my 1st na meeting last night..what an eye opening experience..it happened to be someoneds 2 year anniversary..there was so much love in the room between everyone there..im so happy i found a meeting that i liked..i honestly cant wait to go back..suport support support..i need the support from this site and from the meeting..i have such a possitive outlook right now, and i can truely say i am not going to use TODAY..thank you everyone for your kind words and support..keep posting..

[donewitis]

sometime last year I went c/t withdrawal...and it was an abolute torment. (out of the blue decided ct) After the 5th day, I started again, thinking I could control it. If that's not insane, I don't know what is. This time, now that I have more info., I know that 'aftrcare' is an absolute necessity.

[gnarly_1]

HEY DUDE congrats on breaking free many cant so its quit an accomplishment the next step is aftercare please dont try and leave this critical step out me DominoSara Vicki all keep our sobriety in tack by using aftercare it is a critical part of recovery the mind games will sart you need to be on your A game to get past them or you will crash and burn we all would without aftercare so get involved both N/A and A/A have free programs if you prefer 1 on1 you can seek out a addiction therapist or a substance abuse conslor but do become pro/active in your recovery the mental mindscrew will start and you will be cought off guard this can end in a relapse its best to be prepared detoxing is not the end but mearlly the beginning of your journey good luck to you and God bless......Gnarly      

[ValCash]

Exactly!! Eric you got it!! That's the attitude!!  That's all it is.. take it little steps at a time!! This was a huge one you took.. to finally admit you're an addict and you just can't do it anymore. Be strong!! God bless!! :)

[dominosarah]

Congrats on getting your life back eric!!  The mental game will kick in now so make sure you have a good recovery support system in your life.  Keep moving forward~~~sara

[erric111]

i totally agree...ii know im an addict..it will take only took 1 pill to get me hooked all over again..i know if i do i will def lose my family..failure is not an option..i have to much going for me to lose it cause of this poison..but today im  not taking anything, tomorrow i will deL WITH THEN, BUT AS OF NOW I FEEL FREE AND I KNOW TODAY I WILL  STAY CLEAN..1 DAY AT A TIME..GOOD LUCK TO YOU..KEEP POSTING IT HELPS

[vicki595]

erric-  That's very good!  But, I need to tell you that you're still an addict and I dont mean to be harsh here.  Recovery is a long process and it's mental. So,you need to think about what's going to keep you away from the pills,okay?

Having your mind made up is half the battle. You'll do fine!