I think i'm ready to face life again.... just a little scared

[BayBeast]

Hey guys, i just passed the 24 hour mark since the last time I took  vics...I was taking 10-14 10/mgers per day for about one year... ABSOLUTELY NO ONE in my world knows of my problem...The withdrawals are definitely kickin in... Headache, upset stomach, and incredibly achy legs... I can already feel my mind waking a bit. I've been numb for a long time now and I can feel my emotions all slowly creeping back... It's a beautiful feeling... Feeling anything but numb feels so fresh and new... The withdrawals are bad, but the excitement is overpowering and frightening at the same time... I'm starting to think about everything that got me juiced before this life of drugs... Family, music, sports and above all GOD!!! I can't wait to be back and praise like i used to!! I was just wondering if I've hit the worst or am I just getting started? Oh and I'm going straight cold turkey. Any advice is greatly appreciated...

BayBeast

[worried878]

Dont know why u r feeling so good...u may just have been so tired of feeling sick and tired that anything is a relief...i would not worry if u will feel worse or better tomorrow...just make it thru today and be thankful u feel so positive...keep posting

[insearchof4]

I forgot one suggestion...this may be a good time for comfort food!!!  Your appetite might be weird right now and you may experience nausea, but chocolate in some form is actually known to be soothing in times like this.  Try some chocolate pudding, ice cream, etc.  It's weird, but it does truly help.

[NautyOne]

Great Job......Just watch out for day 3......its a beast!!!  I'm not going to sugar coat it, but you can do it.......cause your are the BEAST !!!!!

Luv,
Nauty...............

[insearchof4]

I'm right there with you...day 3 of withdrawal from hydro.  I found this forum on the first day, which frankly, is the only reason I am still not using.  The tempatation (mentally) has been powerful.  It is truly amazing how powerful the healing benefits of this forum.  The computer is just a channel for deep human interaction.  I've only been on this forum for a few days and I've had better results for 18 months in AA/NA meetings.  It's changing my life.  I live on an island (truly) and I live alone.  Nights can be so lonely, which translates to danger zone for an addict (at least this addict).  I hate the isolation but I also believe that God has me where I am for a reason.  I was so lonely and felt like no one understood me until I found this forum this week.  It keeps me clean!!

[sadinmichigan]

glad to hear back from you..I agree with you, this forum has been wonderful to me and i am thankful that I found it one night..Please be careful ,if you think you are getting pnuemonia go to the e.r. or your dr right away..I have heard some having that happen to them..I think your on the right track..keep looking ahead..

[BayBeast]

Wow! You guys are AMAZING! Thanks for getting back to me so quickly... It really helps me to just get it out there and talk about it... I believe that almost ALL addicts are born hypersensitive humans and everyday life is just plain harder to get through, for us,  without numbing our emotions. I was born with a very intense, hypersensitive and incredibly shy soul and been battling it ever since... When i was little, I was that little boy always hiding behind his moms leg and would rather sit and watch kids play then to interact. I know, I need to find ways to keep my overactive mind busy, without turning to drugs to dumb it down..... it's just so flippin hard!  It's weird that i can receive so much strength, through the computer, from people i've never met... and i thank you...I just got back from a 45 minute power walk and broke a good sweat. I agree, sadinmichigan. I'm starting to think that the withrawals haven't fully started yet. The last time i tried quitting i got pnuemonia on the second day of withdrawals so i immediately went back to pill poppin,  but i have a feeling that this forum is the key to me being successful this time...
Thanks for the love,
BayBeast

[changingbestfriends]

Today is day 26 clean for me off of Vicodin and I went cold turkey too - and I am still having problems sleeping.  I used to drive to the mail box ( It's on the edge of my property) and not at the end of a long road or anything, just lost all energy for anything.  Pretty much exercise was a yucky word for me for 20 years and when I started to withdraw I forced myself to start walking.  First around the house once.  (I don't have a humungous house either, lol).  I am now up to 3 miles a night.  It makes a huge difference.  Like I said, still having major sleep issues but your body is resilient and it is amazing what we put them through and they keep on tickin'!!  Good luck hon.  You can do this.  Next few days might be a little rough for you but keep the faith and stay posting on here.  It truly has been a blessing for me, immensely!!!!!!!!    

[sadinmichigan]

congratulations..you made the hardest step of all..!! You will start to feel worse @ day 3-4 as those are generally the worst of it..and then you will start feeling better..So yes, honestly..you will feel a bit worse but keep your mind strong..You can do this...in @ a week you should feel alot better. keep posting..it helps alot..one of the side effects of w/d is the inability to sleep...but that will improve, there are some natural supplements you can try to help with that,(found in the thomas recipe)..drink plenty of water and try to force yourself to take some short walks..

[desperate1111]

you're doing great. i'm so proud of you. life sure is better without the pills. be sure to check out the health pages here. the amino acids and thomas recipe, its a huge help.
good luck to you. you sound like you have the strenght and courage to do this.

[Korley]

I am not sure how you are feeling as good as you do. I would for sure be prepared for some negative side affects, but in time it will get better. Today is day 26 clean for me and actually the mental part has been harder for me, but everyone is different. Glad that you are here and any time you feel like using just keep posting here, and as I have said before, prayer is a miracle worker.