just a hard night

[brownvelvet]

I am struggling tonight. I am tired of not sleeping well and tired of rls....its getting better but a part of me wants to take something like Xanax or gabapentin or trazadone and just knock out cold for once....I know I just shouldn't and all but when the promise of sleep is hours away and my leg is wanting to thrash ...I just want to sleep....I don't want to feel high or euphoric or even happy.....I jut want to sleep....I am fine all day.... until night time.... ugh... thanks for "listening" to me rant....I know many know just how I feel.... sigh....I should be so happy because many here have it so much worse.....I read everyone posts though I don't comment muchbecause I am no expert....
Goodnight and sweet dreams to any who can and all that want to

[brownvelvet]

i am sleeping almost normally now.i wanted to thank everyone for "listening" to me .....I am almost off the SSRI ...I hope to stop this weekend completely and then all drugs...xanax, tramadol, and lexapro will be gone....and my mind will be my own and when I have a headache it will be for reasons other than side effects or withdrawal or who knows....anyone else wonder that? you have some symptom and you wonder...is that a side effect of the drug? or is it because i havent had enough? I am sick of wondering and I have to say since quitting tramadol my headaches are almost nil....so tramadol was a cause for at least some....i just cant wait to be off everything .....I am sleeping and exercising and my energy is back and my outlook is clear....anyone that may read this in future...you can reach this place too...if I did you can...trust me

[Ronda8899]

I'm so happy to hear that your having a good day! Cherish the sleep that you did get and the feeling that you have now. It will soon be like that all the time. Your doing great, keep it up!

[brownvelvet]

Thanks everyone
I think hearing how others understand is the most beneficial part of my posting here. I learn a lot by reading all the other posts but sometimes it helps just to know others know exactly how you feel.... the no sleep torture... it is by far the worst for me....
I did get sleep last night....I couldn't believe it..... maybe just knowing other people understood and like you said... accepting that I will struggle to sleep..not getting all freaked out.... helped....i don't know.... but today the sun is shining and I slept a good amount.... so at least today is a good day...

[jifmoc]

Brown, out of all the detox symptoms, I remember that one being the worst. You are SO tired, but you can't sleep. I remember it helped when I just accepted that I wouldn't sleep, I wouldn't even try. The worst is going into bed and lying there and freaking out because you can't sleep.

Insomnia won't kill you. It's part of the detox deal. This is our comeuppance for all our easy way outs!:)

It will pass. That's a promise.

[ImInAwe]

Trazedone is a type of antidepressant that can help with withdrawal symptoms like insomnia and is often given at rehabs. Taking a shower helps my rls symptoms, as does Hyland's Restful Legs, which I found at Walmart. Praying for you. Hold on, you can do this!

[meegWpaw]

hey bv, you are doing great.  the insomnia nearly drove me crazy but i did get through it.  have you tried Alteril or Nature Made Sleep (both herbal and you can get at the drugstore)?  maybe someone already suggested this.  I had horrible insomnia ... nothing worked, i mean nothing and then i tried Alteril.  now i use Sleep cuz its cheaper.  i sometimes take Benadryl because i have allergies and that makes you sleepy too.  maybe i shouldnt say this but i have taken Benadryl and Sleep together, as well as Benadryl and Alteril.  in my aftercare program / treatment facility, they prescribe Trazadone all the time and i don't think that is considered a narcotic.  Personally I really don't like that drug, but i think it's ok to take in recovery.  hang in there!

[gettingmylifeback1964]

RLS and not sleeping are the worst, agreed.  My therapist told me if I am not sleeping get out of bed and go watch tv or read a book.  I exercise, squats lots of squats to get rid of the RLS.  I also come on this site and read and when I start to get sleepy I go back to bed and am able to get a couple more hours in.  The worst thing to do is stay in bed.  It's torture!!!!!

[Addictchick_1983]

Oh I hear ya... That's the worst part of wd. The no sleep I think made/makes me more crazy than anything. Lol. This is not my first ct... But will be my last!!! I hope that you do finally get some sleep .... Sooner than later. We are rooting for you. Well done on the recovery!