1/6 of a year clean from Vicodin

[Nursey7]

Wow!  I can't believe it has been 60 days; it is so amazing.  I can't help but cry when I write this because I seriously never thought I could do it.  If it hadn't been for getting on this site at day 2 cold turkey, I wouldn't be here.  I would still be alone with my secret little affair, feeling like a horrible, woman, daughter, mom and nurse!  I let it bring me down so far before I would ever confess to myself I was an addict, let alone to anyone else.  The biggest thing I have learned is an "addict" is an "addict"   There is no difference between myself who got them legitimately from my doctor or a person that knocked someone over the head and stole some drugs.  The mindset is all the same.  We all have the potential to let it get out of hand and hit "our bottom."  So why wait for that?  If you have any inkling, get out now!!  I beg you not to waste years.  One other big thing, yes the anxiety, depression, mood swings and lack of sleep are all part of it!!  I still have issues, BUT, they are few and far between now.  The longer you go the better it gets!  I used to get mad when people would tell me that in my first few days because nothing was better for a long time!!  I would just come back on and post and someone said, "I promise" it gets better.  I held on to that PROMISE and if I could have cyber-spaced a pinky swear I would have  ;-)  So please, please don't give up; it is so worth it.  I thank-you ALL so much for every bit of support you have given me.  Yeah KYLE you know I got to single you out; it wouldn't be the same if I didn't.  I will be forever grateful to you for your promise, for being unrelenting about the pills, the refills, the messages day or night, oh yeah, I can't forget the BUTTERFINGERS!!!  HAHAHA!!!

[kyle505]

PS - I just got it...1/6 year clean? What we won't do to use the Y word.  

[kyle505]

I can't believe that you're at 60 days already. I think at about this point in my recovery I mentioned to my wife that I was 60 days clean and she replied " really? Already? That was fast".  I just looked at her. She realized that I'd just been through the most difficult two months of my life and started laughing and apologizing at the same time.
So to you I say "Already"? Time flys when you're having fun.
I'm very proud of you. And from what you've posted it sounds like things are really falling in to place.  The promise I made you, that life is wonderful without pills, was an easy one to make because its true. The hard part is reaching the point where you can see how true it is. You made it. Now enjoy.

[Brightfutureahead]

So happy for you my friend...hope you did lots of nice things for yourself today...I feel like a proud mamma (kid? Friend? You know what I mean ;)

[Nursey7]

Thanks for your comments-it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside ;-)

[littlebit667]

great post!  It does get better....but addicts have never been known for having patience!!!  I hope life gives you all you want and need!  You have given yourself a wonderful present.  

[Teresa1717]

Congrats on 60 days!! I have been there before and hopefully will be again soon to celebrate with you! Keep up the great work and thank you for giving the rest of us hope! :)

[selfinduced]

Proud doesn't even describe the feelings I have for your accomplishments. I knew you were determined from the start, and look at you now.....Just spectacular ! Keep the days going!

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 1/6th of a year clean!!  Hold that clean time sacred, do whatever you need to do to stay that way and always keep your Guard Up!

[candy_17]

Awesome post!! That's so great!! Keep up the good work. Thank you for sharing:)

[overopiates]

Congrats.I had2read the post twice cause u put1/6th of a yr.60days sounds so much better and I remember that was so huge for me.All I could think was wow I havent been clean this long n....oh crap i cnt remember(that was a real eye opener).I love that u posted4new comers who r freaked out&telling them the truth.IT GETS BETTER.I hope u do a little something special for youself for this.I too got mine from a dr but abused them,bought way too many etc.I know just not havong that dr bill,paying4the script etc saved me lots of money so Im sure u notice(unless u have insurance of course)point is u deserve to reward urself for that hard work ur doing.Please try to stick around.This site needs people like u to keep it going.
Sabrina

[clean_in_ks]

Whahoo, bahzoo!!!!!  Sharing in your joy!

Also, so happy that you found support during your early days.  I was almost 60 days clean when I "found" this community of lovely addicts LOL!

I probably could have helped myself thru the w/drawals and probably would have known more about suboxone....so I wouldn't have just "quit" taking it because I hated it and the Dr./Wacko that prescribed it to me.

But......it isn't so much HOW we get here......as THAT WE ARE HERE!!

Keep postin.....you are delightful!