last day without and scared

[sad1258]

Have been taking Lortab 10 for 4 years.  3 months ago got kicked out of pain clinic...got caught getting them from primary doc and pm..stupid!  I have weened from last rx..have one more left. No one knows what I am going through..have no one to talk too...I am extremely sad, anxious and trying to act normal...will I ever feel like I want to live again?????  Please someone talk to me........

[sad1258]

dealing with headaches--primary doc sent me to a neurologist..cat scan showed dengenerative disc in my neck bone spurs and he asked me if I had ever been in an auto accident..trauma of some sort..no I have not...well he saw me for the usual 15-20 mins and wrote me scripts for several meds..oh I don't know..to prevent headaches etc.  told me side effects..ex. it might be hard to get words out at times...well I was not willing to start on all these meds and called his office back week later and told his nurse..asked if there was something else we could try....I think he thought I just a "drug seeker" and washed his hands with me and referred me to spine center/pain management doc...I received injections at that point and he gave me the rx for Lortab 2x day to maintain...went from there...and  here I am today!! makes me sick to think about it!!!  gotta get up and move talk to you again later...hang in there!!! thinking of you always!

[Cantdothisanymore]

i have been meaning to ask you. you said you have no pain you just wanted the pills - what got you started at a pain clinic?

[Cantdothisanymore]

just wanted to check in with you. here we are another day past our misery. I am still 2 days older than you but as long as it always stays that way then we will both be fine.  I was expecting a visit from a friend and was actually looking forward to it. mowed my lawn - cleaned my house - got some food ready for a cook out and then she cancelled. i understand - she has to help her mom but it made me sad again and i was doing really well the last couple hours. guess my point is i am learning there are going to be a lot of triggers that help us or hurt us. some will make us happy others not so much and this my friend we can deal with. deep breaths - count it down and get up and move. that is my strategy. i need a plan otherwise i cant do this. i am still here for you and hope to hear from you soon.

[sad1258]

thanks sunshine for the prayers...boy do i need them!!!! I keep saying my prayers too..is it just me or were and are the hardest moments of the day when you wake up and the thought of taking shower makeup hair and getting dressed seem like the most impossible thing in the WORLD...and getting close to dinner time..what am I going to fix??not hungry at all and to see the kids faces when all there is is pizza or sandwich...the guilt is too much..and all the times in between when the mind wonders..can't get away from it no matter what..cantdothisanymore--your three days ahead of me and you still feel like this...GOD that means I don't have an end in sight!!!!!  ok all of you great people out there past 12+ days we need some more encouragement..NOW!!

[sunshine1109]

Oh sweetie your more than welcome....keep in contact with your Higher Power and you will get through this...I wish I could tell you my whole story...without God in my life I honestly dont think I would be where I am today...

[Cantdothisanymore]

thank you very much -'fraid I need it today