new thoughts on PAWS today, check it out,

[redbull]

You guys (and girls) know I'm obsessing on this PAWS. I'm an addict, I OD on everything. I notice that so many people express fear of these symptoms and don't know when there gonna happen (just waiting for the hammer to drop) and feeling bad when they do. Wrong thinking IMO I've learned all the signs, we all know the suprise symptoms coming at us at any time, and can last awhile (catch em off guard). This knowledge is ALL the power. We can use this to our advantage, just like guys prepare for a fight (flight or fight) fear will make us run and hide. Knowledge will help us fight. If I can see tapes of how you fight, hooks, jabs, on the rope or an inside fighter. I know what to expect when I get in the ring with you, I'm not afraid because I've watched how you fight and can now counter all your moves before or during the time you are trying them on me. I have your number going into the ring. The PAW symptoms are the same, not to be feared but to embrace and act accordingly as they come. If I know your moves, you will be in for a big suprise yourself because I'm ready for you (I watched tapes of how you fight and you do it the same everytime) PAW symptoms are easily recognized..Unclear thinking (I can write stuff down when this gets thrown) Stress out of nowhere (Breathe,calm down,do some exercise) Sleep disturbance (take a bath, drink some sleepytime tea,get on floor stretch out, maybe an over counter sleep med) Emotional overaction (breathe, embrace it as you're healing, Pray for help, be calm) Memory issues (embrace it, know it's just PAWS and you will get better) Agitation (look at you first, understand there's a chance there not pissing you off on purpose, the world just has dump people in it and you are responsible about how you react to it). We can make up our own counter punches to these assults. But be READY and embrace them (PAWS) when they come and know that they are coming. No Fear! Just Preparedness! So what do you all think about this outlook? It's there, It's real,  but I'll be damn if I'm gonna run and hide from it or be afraid. Fear is NOT the way to freedom from this monster. I'm a fighter, I know I've done my share of running and got sick to my stomach doing it too. I fight and I fight good. I will fight with a kind heart and not be too mean about it but when PAWS knocks on my door (and it's happening now) I've got a little something for him this go around. Pardon my analogizes but that's how I'm feeling today (and it feels good) Tell me what you all think, am I high on this stuff or what?

[vicki595]

Good!  Listen, I know ( as most of us do ) what you're talking about here. You put into words very nicely.  Recovery can be a real bear but you hang in there for the greater good!

It's never over it seems!  So you keep your guard up all the time. If things get especially bad ( and I'm talking way down the road) you have to have an outlet,sponsor, someone!!
Quickly: about a month ago, I could not stop thinking!!   It was making me crazy...the thoughts were non stop (of using something!!) I wrote to "sara" here on the forum. In about 3 sentences she straightened my *** right out! That's all it took!  It's only happened that once and I've been straight for 20 months now but it happened...so GUARD UP!!    And always call someone if you feel like you might fall!

I listen to the theme from Rocky every damn day!!  

[redbull]

"Rocky" I like that. That's a great big smile you just gave me.

[vicki595]

Yes, you are high on this stuff but that's perfectly fine. Go get'em Rocky!!