ok im baack to the pain pills forum i need to detox off this s..t i need your help

[beth7819]

ok i did it with alcohol i have cronic pain there is things i want to do like AA softball i counted my pills i was taking three a day perk 10/325 i saw i wont have enough to last til dec 5th when i see pain mngt and what if they chose a different med for me vics dont work perks are working for me im not in a haze im able to complete my obligations ride my bike in nc i couldnt even walk cause i chose no meds i didnt have a ride to physical therapy which i have an apt for next fri i want to do acupuncture aswell but i am comfortable taking meds too im not abusing them im not in a haze i go to AA everyday i know i could be going dwn a terrible path too i took 2 yesterday 1 today im going to take 1 everyday til my apt i do feel my mind telling me things kinda like the  alcohol doit go out dont worry all bad signs im being mind fu..ed rt? i need to try this without meds then i will truely know what my limits are im just terrified because i cant forget the past how bad i felt and how i feel now ofcourse istill deal with pain but its doable i swung a bat for the 1st time since i was 9 when i put the bat down the pain in my hands were terrible but the high from being able to was so wonderful i just want to be normal so im ganna give the bottle to my husband since finally he doesnt have to work and has some time off hes a captain in usmc hes finally proud of me i dont want to screw this up. and if im laying on the couch all the time he will think im just lazy he even knows im different and he likes me the way i am now not drinking acountable driven what if im not able to do these things??????
am i obsesssing again what am i doing writing this i think do i have a problem or what is it im so scared and confused you all have helped me everyday with staying off alcohol i come on here everyday lookback to things i said when i 1st got on here and what brought me here in the 1st place i hope ive help ppl too but im very confused today and i need answers

[dominosarah]

You gotta try and slow up your thinking.  You are putting so much stress on yourself.  I am glad you finally gave those pills to your husband to hold.  Your addict brain is screaming at you.  Many of us found that our pain levels dropped once we cleaned up.  Hopefully that will be the case for you but you have to give it time.  You gotta let those pills go as they are controlling you.  You gave up the alcohol and that is great, you found out that there is a life without alcohol, now try it without the pills.  You can do this beth~~sara

[beth7819]

i went to AA and they said one thing at a time that i will over load myself im going to see if i can have a thing put in my spine to block pain recepters they believe in me and my pain is crippling. i will hve them dispensed and im ganna take 1 perday till we can figure out options with dr they know i dont want the pill route i think im screaming about the  cronic pain topic today as about resentfulness i am disabled and was so active and im so torn inside because my body doesnt do things i wish it could and does things so painful for simple things i am  so motivated now and christiantity is back in my life and im really praying about this. but they assured me at AA i was doing things correctly the 1st thing i started doing about almost a month sober is be honest so honest i was screaming the truth thru the roof tops

[Bkitty]

~ You might benefit from a taper off the pain medications due to your chronic pain issues while transitioning to non narcotic medications and other outlets for pain relief. Dont forget to address the underlying issue that keeps you abusing the medication like depression,,etc. What was the underlying issues for the alcohol abuse,, I cant stress this enough. Ive "quit" the pills lots of times before but kept going back because they made me feel good.You know what it takes to live a sober life,,you need to incorperate that into this addiction as well. Keep us posted please. You can do this~Bkitty

[painpills925]

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