oxycodone nightmare trifecta

[monochrome73]

Took a bunch of tramadol few minutes ago to get my fix.  I quit the oxycodones but have alot of trammys.  I like the way tramadol works actually it makes me happy.  I hate  using and looked deeply at myself as to why i do it.  I am living with my exgf and taking care of her and her 3 kids, I still love her but she hates me probably because i stole here oxys for such a long time, she's addicted to them and adderall.  Anyways it is torture to love someone and live with them and be ignored, I am self medicating myself to dull the pain.  I know i don't have a chance with her and my friends tell me there are other girls out there but I can't leave her, plus i feel responsible to make sure she and kids have a roof and food to eat.  I haven't had sex in 7 months also and I am at my wits end about that too.  I just want someone to love and someone to love me back, too bad pills have become the mistress that holds me in her arms and comforts me,. I know if I found a great girl I could be so motivated to quit but right now I don't have a reason too.  Maybe I should just use till my situation changes? Thanks for listening, Rob.

[vicki595]

You hate using but like "trammys"...hmmm...

You need a reason to quit? How about your life is in the toilet right now?

You know, things look very different when pills are removed from the equation. How can we help you to help yourself?

Keep posting...

[hiskidd]

I hope Sarah comments on this ;)

Rob, you should just quit. You know your perspective on everything will change. There is no perfect motivator out there, our situation. In fact, situations have a way of getting worse and letting us justify prolonging our usage. WDs suk. Healing with a clear mind is great. Be encouraged.

[ImDONENoMore]

Well no, your situation isn't going to change BECAUSE you're using.

Are you ready to quit?