just ownderd why no has responed to my help with oxycodones. I need help!!!

[sheila0430]

I typed a long thing about my problems is that why no one has responed. I really need help, thats hwy i came here so plzzzz if anyone has the time to respond to me plz do!!! its uneder been i rehab 3 1\2 days plz read it and help me thru this hard time. I know i have alot of typos in the first one i typed. Been sitting at the computer over 45 minutes and no response. It makes me feel like what the hell go ise and try to get off it slowly and then who has to pay for taht. My family . My hubby just got home and I told him plzzz dont give me and more pain meds even if i begg or cry for it. I can do this but i do need support from people who are going thru what i am . Thanks for listening. I just want to go do things with my daughter and let her have ahappy life, my older kids dont even talk to me. Thye are very sad what i have done. I was always the responsible one. Dad was the one i always had to bail out . Why dont they feel for me. Since im the mom and i should know better. NOt fair!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im human

[mtgoat911]

welcome to the forum, i stopped opiates in 04, used an inpatient facility and na
are you willing to do one of these?

[mojorisin64]

good job!!!i can tell you are going to get thru this!!!

[sheila0430]

I decided not to sit in the house on day 1. Went to bingo , I felt so weird not having the meds.But i got in my mind taht i wuold rather have 7  days of hell then lose my house and all my friends and family. I know i have a tuff battle .The w/ds are what scare me. So i will post everyday to you guys to vent.I got my number changed. My dealer called me yesterday and i was so proud of my self .I told her to lose my # and got my # changed. ITs sad how these dealers dont care. Alll they care about is the money!!!!!!!!!!!!! well thx everyone again and i will post later. I know tomorrow will be bad. It will be 48 huors being clean . I know day 3 and 4 are the worst. Once i get thru that ican deal with ohter stuff. I just hink of the w/ds and that will make me stop!!!!!!!!! plus my kid. I love her so much. ?But it seems she is being really mean lately beacuse she knows that something is wrong. So i am going to tell her tonight about this, not all the details. But let her know how doctors get you on this meds and tehn know that u will get addicted on it for 3 years. AND then they dont what to help u then, SO mommy has to do this on her own!!! ANd im doing this for her and myself so we can have our life back. I hope by easter the w/ds will be all gone and i will ahve anice easter and something to celebrate, it will be 13 days clean on easter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so thx again ill talk at u all later. If anyone need anything from me plz feel free to type me and i will respond. I would love to hlp someone on here like you guys are hlping me. KEep up the good work you guys are doing and take it 1 day at a time. YOu guys are life avers. I wdont know what i wold do if that didnt have this site. Ithink its better then talking to a doctor :)

[boogieman]

hi. domino hit on something i don't hear a lot, that is excellent advice. get rid of phone numbers, email addresses, etc. of the folks (like your dealer) that make it easy for you to keep using. that's something i had to do myself because i'm good at rationalizing things like "hmmmm, i think i'll give my old partner in crime a call to see how things are going." my addiction is out in the front yard right now doing push-ups as it waits, and it wants to get at me any way it can. hang in there and take care,   gm

[RebelsHubby]

I am usually around if you need someone to talk to.

My DOC was hydrocodone, 120 to 160mg/day.  
I am over 400 days clean, but please don't think about anything long term, it took me a lot to get here, and that is a lot of "One Day At A Time's".
Keep your head up, every day gets a bit easier.  Just shout out any concerns and we will halp as best we can.

[dominosarah]

We have all been in your shoes so we do understand.......

[sheila0430]

thanks every one , u have made me feel good about myself. Im going to get thru for ME and my family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope i have u guys to talk to thru this whole process. GOD BLESS u all for the psots u have left and i really do thx u from the bottome of my heart, it makes me fell someone cares and knows what im going thru . I hope to talk to u guys later on tonight. I will be on here on and off thry the next month or so to see how everyone is doing and to let u know how i am doing. IF anyone needs my help for anything just wrtie me and ill be more then happy to help you, thx again :)

[jollyman069]

I am on day 20 of w/ds from percs and time released morphine taking them for 4 years, plus i have dialysis 3 times a week and my body was really wrecked with the w/d...but now i feel great..still having trouble sleeping you cam\n do this it is the hardest thing you will ever do but you will love yourself for it.

Try talking with your kids you didnt want this to happen none of us on here did..but life is life and we all are human and make mistakes..this one is a bad one, maybe thats why God made w/d so bad to teach us alesson..good luck keep posting and God bless...brian

[outotown]

This site is in granny gear today, im sorry you had to come here but we had to come here. We will be here for you and give you all the love and support we can. Post all you need to you can tell people here anything and NO ONE WILL JUDGE YOU!!! Heaven forbid one of us on here to judge anyone. GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS YOU

[sheila0430]

thanks for the info that helped me alot . SO i cant wait to get thru taht 4 day mark. I was alomst there and walked outo f rehab on the 3rd day how stupid of me, but the whole time i was hter i couldnt focous on myslef like they tellu too. My main focus is kennedy my sweeet little 8 year old. Its so sad how mnay people that are on oxycodones, They are so hard to find at a store. Theres ab ack oerder on them for along time. Thx goodness i dont have to go thru going to 50 places to get my scprit filled. So u think i should go to my doctor and tell him that i took all the pills he gave me in 3 days thats 10 30mgs of oxycodones in 1 day . Or just leave it alone and do this all on my own. I know to many of the tricks to get him to give me more. So thats like going thru the same old sh**** that go t me her in the first place. I hope  to talk to u soon again i will proabley be on this sight 24/7  for the first week. REading your stories makes me think there are people out here just lke me and care!!!!!!!!!! thx again

[dominosarah]

Take your dealer off your list....You dont need their services anymore.  They only see you as money and dont care what happens.

You know about the amino acids right?  I thought i read that from your first post.  Start taking that.  These next days are not going to be pleasant but it is all part of the process of ridding your body of the toxins.  You are going to have to dig really deep and come out fighting like he!!.  Have your husband lock up the meds that are in the house.  You can get your life back and your relationship with your kids.  You have to be strong and want this with everything you have.  You are into your 1st hour.....now we move on to the next.  You can do this!!!!  We are here for you..........sara

[sheila0430]

thanks you are so sweet . Thats somehting i need to hear. I hope i hear from u leter on and ill let u know how im doing and alos if u need anyhing let me know. I have alot of good resources and will be sharing them with u and u need any!!!!! :) thx again xoxoxooxoxo

[mojorisin64]

hi im sorry,i was taking oxys too...i went ct and now im at 90 days clean from them....for me i had a 3 day weekend off work,told family i had the flu and just bit the bullet,wasnt as horrible as i thought...i was lucky enough to sleep a lot and just run to the bathroom when needed you know??/ i also started  taking vitamins,supplements like b12 and b6 and an antioxidant....and i lost my taste for coffee...so i switched to hot green tea which is much better for you ...it will be hard if you have access to the pills tho...make sure he knows that you are serious....so for 3-4 days you will feel crappy,but just tell yourself you are healing,the poison will fight its way out of your body and you can win when there isnt that **** in yu anymore..eat what you can,if youre not hungry try to eat a banana or oatmeal...i also have been on an anti depressant (celexa) that has helped me too,i was on it before i got addicted but i took the oxys anyway (just to get high duh) and i think they really help with the anxiousness you might get...ask me anything im here

[sheila0430]

yes been taking them for 3 years starting out at 1 day to 8 a day thats 240mg.I know htats alot but thanks sarah to let me know taht im doing this right.I am LOL now 1 hour clean. Im so happy u responded to me. I was about to call my dealer and say forget it start tomorrow on getting clean!!!!!!!!! YOu are asweetheart to take timeto write me back. Hopefully i hear from u later on thxxxxxxxx xoxoxooxoxoxo

[refusingbondage]

We are totally here for you..  So your addicted to oxycodone right.  Ok, first.  No panicking.  I know this is really rough and withdrawal is AWFUL but you can make it hrough this.  Dont take anything.  You will feel a lot better in about a week.. beginning to feel better probably around 5 days.. the physical is the first battle.  The mental is the second and lifelong battle.  You should really consider some kind of receovery support, this forum is great but NA meetings, or even therapy is really important, along with this forum..  We have all been where you are.  And there many amazing supportive people here.  So congrats on wanting to be clean.  Congrats on telling hubby -under no circumstances to give you meds.. He will have to hide them.. and he will have to be firm in this.. there is no other way...  I want to say to you, please let go of any guilt.  It is what it is.  You are human and you are an addict.  Forgive yourself.  The best gift you can give your children is successfully cleaning up and living life sober.  You can do this.  Have faith in yourself.  I know you can!

[dominosarah]

We are here for you and will support you.  The forum is rather slow this morning.  Your taking oxy's right??