Day 9...still dragging

[cleangimnow]

I'm dragging a$$ right now. Went for a morning run which was rough but I feel better than before. Just checking in and want to keep hearing that I'm going to heal. Ate breakfast this morning and only took half of immodium. I feel some stomach problems still but I got by yesterday with no problems on a hal of immodium. Should I cut it out?

[cleangimnow]

I bet is.!:)

[ImDONENoMore]

This place is pretty great.  :)

[cleangimnow]

Congrats on that much clean time!  That's awesome. I can't wait until I get there!  Im going to be positive and not give myself the option of any more relapses. Of course would you call them relapses if I never made it more than like 5 days before?  I guess....:) I know that you have to make the choice for yourself but I also have a wife and daughter to lose. These pills are not worth that!  I don't know what I was thinking in the past?  My wife has given ultimatums before but I guess I was arrogant enough to think I'll just get clean and then use occasionally. Just don't get it.  Of course, I was on sub before then taking other shorter acting opiates before I quit. Maybe the counceling, sub dr, and NA sunk in some. I got to see where my life is heading if I don't give the pills the middle finger. Anyway I'm going to keep posting. I REALLY appreciate all of the support here!  I didn't feel as accepted in NA. My councilor is great but I don't see her that often. Much love to you.

[ImDONENoMore]

It was probably around the three-month mark that I knew there was no turning back.  Don't get me wrong, I felt stronger after a few weeks and the bad moments/days began to lessen, but overall, probably around the 90 day mark.

And it does feel great not to have your whole life revolve around a bottle of pills.  And I do have some clean time behind me - in fact, it will be exactly one year tomorrow.  So hang in there and keep the faith!!  :)

[cleangimnow]

Thanks!  I do have feelings of pride now. It feels good not to be chained to a drug. I couldn't see that early on. I am definitely feeling the ups and downs. It's a rollercoaster. I would be terribly disappointed in myself if I did go back.

Anyone with a lot of clean time know when they finally have had it? BDo you think back to the other times and see a different mentality?  I hope so. I am keeping my guard up and have cut everyone out who is bad even my "friends". Just wondered....

[ImDONENoMore]

Congrats on day 9!!

And your recovery will continue to be non-linear; meaning you'll have good moments/days, and bad moments/days.  It will continue to be up and down for a while.  But you are well on your way to feeling better!

Remember - we didn't get addicted in a week and we won't get out of the mess in a week either.  Like anything else worthwhile, it takes time.  So remind yourself of that in those bad moments.

Good luck to you!  And feel PROUD because you deserve it.  :)

[cleangimnow]

I'm feeling better now at lunch. It gets better as the day goes on thankfully. Still tired though. Gonna try to come early to rest. My rehab is the most important thing in my life. Still get the chills!

[cleangimnow]

I'm glad to hear it. Trust me I needed it this morning. My stomach was going crazy!!!  I know that each day things get better. This 2nd week and being back at work is challenging. Why go back now right?  This much misery does not need to be experienced again. When I get those good feelings about being done it seems to re-energize my fight.

[vicki595]

Hi- No,I'd still take it a little longer as long as you have stomach issues. A lot of people swear by Immodium during detox because it has opiate properties although it won't cross the blood/brain barrier. So,it can "cover" receptors but you don't feel the drug. It can work against you with causing constipation so just use your judgement and don't take it over 2 weeks. If you still have trouble just check with your doctor.

You'll soldier through this. It just takes time...like everything else!! Keep checking in.I'll bet you'll feel better tomorrow. Keep drinking and eating well and don't push too much in the heat.

[cleangimnow]

Ok took another Immodium. Thtats 1.5. How long will stomach issues last???