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Trying to do it for good this time
I am very embarassed to even write anything but I feel it is time to talk about my problem. I have never talked to anyone about my addiction to vicodin I just always made excuses for having to take them. I had a addiction to them about 2 years ago and somehow quit cold turkey then, which was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my whole life. Well I am pregnant now and my doctor gave me a prescription to them for my bad migraines and somehow my habit got out of control again. I am so embarassed and ashamed that I have let it go this far. I haven't even gone 24 hours but I know I have to quit. I am already having awful withdrawals and I have to work and live my life like nothing is wrong. Is there any advise from anyone to make this a little easier. I am admitting for the first time that I need support to make it.
Hi Shelly,
My name is Mike. Sounds like you are getting great advice, Please take them up on it, they have certainly helped me. I asked for help last Friday. Between then and now, I have seen my doctor who prescribed me Suboxone which is a med that counteracts the withdrawal efefcts. Today is my first day without Hydrocodone (vic) and I am doing well. I have a long road ahead of me, but I can manage it because I have someone hkeping me and that is my doctor. God is also guiding me as well.
Anyway, I wanted to address what you said about being embarressed and ashamed. I can related to those exact words because I too felt the exact same way, so much so that I did not want to ask anyone for help for the longest time. I am our family leader, and heavily relied upon by extended family for answers to problems and the sorts....I thought I was as strong as they came, but I was fooled by that. I've done alot of research on this and what I have concluded is that this is a disease. All you have to do is answer one question and ask this of yourself "Did I mean for it to get this far", of course the answer is NO. and if you think back to how it happened, you really will not be able to put your finger on any one situation, incident or anything that had you done differently, would have prevented this from happening to you. Hydrocodone and the body speak to one another under our consciousness. I had no idea they were conspiring to have me take more and more vic as the weeks went by. But that is exactly what I did becasue that is exactly what my body/mind was saying had to occur if I wanted to reach that certain state of euphoria.
Anyway, Anyway, I am strong and I still fell prey to this disease. Its OK Shelly. Don't beat yourself up. As my doctor said to met his morning. "I know you did not mean for this to happen, no one ever does. Whats important is not to focus on how you got her, but on how to get our of here". Hes a good doctor and I bet your doctor will have similiar if not exactly the same reaction. They are there to help. Ask them, Remember, doctor/patient relationships are protected to your privacy. Its not like hes going to mention or say anything to any of your family members. You can address this on your own if you want, but definately, like the everyone was saying before me, check in with your OBGYN. Seriously Shelly, I felt like I had no hope on Friday of last week; now look at me....lol...chatting back and forth and trying to be of assitance to anyone I can because I am on my way to being myself again. YOuc an do it. I will say a prayer for you Shelly, and I will continue to pray for you thorughout the week.
God Bless You
MikewithFamily
My name is Mike. Sounds like you are getting great advice, Please take them up on it, they have certainly helped me. I asked for help last Friday. Between then and now, I have seen my doctor who prescribed me Suboxone which is a med that counteracts the withdrawal efefcts. Today is my first day without Hydrocodone (vic) and I am doing well. I have a long road ahead of me, but I can manage it because I have someone hkeping me and that is my doctor. God is also guiding me as well.
Anyway, I wanted to address what you said about being embarressed and ashamed. I can related to those exact words because I too felt the exact same way, so much so that I did not want to ask anyone for help for the longest time. I am our family leader, and heavily relied upon by extended family for answers to problems and the sorts....I thought I was as strong as they came, but I was fooled by that. I've done alot of research on this and what I have concluded is that this is a disease. All you have to do is answer one question and ask this of yourself "Did I mean for it to get this far", of course the answer is NO. and if you think back to how it happened, you really will not be able to put your finger on any one situation, incident or anything that had you done differently, would have prevented this from happening to you. Hydrocodone and the body speak to one another under our consciousness. I had no idea they were conspiring to have me take more and more vic as the weeks went by. But that is exactly what I did becasue that is exactly what my body/mind was saying had to occur if I wanted to reach that certain state of euphoria.
Anyway, Anyway, I am strong and I still fell prey to this disease. Its OK Shelly. Don't beat yourself up. As my doctor said to met his morning. "I know you did not mean for this to happen, no one ever does. Whats important is not to focus on how you got her, but on how to get our of here". Hes a good doctor and I bet your doctor will have similiar if not exactly the same reaction. They are there to help. Ask them, Remember, doctor/patient relationships are protected to your privacy. Its not like hes going to mention or say anything to any of your family members. You can address this on your own if you want, but definately, like the everyone was saying before me, check in with your OBGYN. Seriously Shelly, I felt like I had no hope on Friday of last week; now look at me....lol...chatting back and forth and trying to be of assitance to anyone I can because I am on my way to being myself again. YOuc an do it. I will say a prayer for you Shelly, and I will continue to pray for you thorughout the week.
God Bless You
MikewithFamily
I agree..you need to come clean w/ your ob/gyn dr.
They can help you taper down.
Good luck ...and keep posting!
They can help you taper down.
Good luck ...and keep posting!
Shelly, please tell your OBGYN. You owe this for/to your baby. Don't play around with their health.
IBKLEEN is right do not go c/t while pregnant......its better to taper while pregnant...i went c/t while pregnant and i lost my little boy....drs said that wasnt the cause but i know in my heart it was...so please again do not go c/t...please......god bless u sweetie
You need to see your OBGYN and get hones with him/her. Let them work on a taper schedule for you and the withdrawal could harm the fetus. Please get the help you need.
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