What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Day 9 sub taper.

[amaria]

Day 9, will be ending at 1.5 mgs. Today. the mild wd's have been pretty consistant, but DOABLE. I keep focus with the mindset of ......I could be worse. I know that for sure, been here 2 times before when I ct off oxycodone in the past. Oh, yeah, it could be waaaay worse.lol. So again, I'm doing my day with nothing but positive thoughts. I have been consistantly watching EVERY positive program known to man this past week. Oprah's lifeclass, Reverend T.D. Jakes, Tony Robbins, you name it, I'm armed with it. And the most inspiring of all GOD. And countless support from all of you. This I WILL get through. No matter what it takes. I think with me, I never allowed myself to feel "normal" on the suboxone. In turn its helped me alot with wanted to get off. I am actually developing a hate relationship with it. And don't get me wrong, this med has saved many lives. And is a key tool for many to take their life back, no matter how long one is on it. Everyone's recovery is their own.

We, again have had a few set backs these past few days, for those of you hanging in there with me and know "my story". But I'm refusing to lay down to any of it. Though it would help, if the timing wasn't soooo critical.lol. Riding on some Blind Faith and hard. We WILL prevail. A few reoccuring things I'm noticing between alot of the   successful peopl

[amaria]

Thank u so much Sandy. As the days are more challenging, I'm choosing to increase my faith. I was getting a little stressed earlier today, I stopped myself, grabbed some icewater, took a lawn chair out to the middle of my backyard, and centered my butt.lol. Stared up at the clouds and prayed, and prayed and prayed. Sat in that chair for almost an hour. Didnt take a step till I knew I was full of every ounce of strength I needed to stay focused on this "journey". In return, I have challenged myself again to stand strong on my faith. I have nothing to loose. Thanks again for your inspiring words. :)

[sandstone27]

WOW Amaria, I am amazed at the complete focus and tenacity that has gotten you down to 1.5 mgs so quickly.  That is quite an accomplishment and you have alot to be proud of!  I could see the glimmers of the strong willed person when you first began posting, and now your light is really starting to shine.   I believe your faith has alot to do with it as well.  I really love Joel Osteen also  - he is such a positive influence.

My hat is off to you hon... you have GOT this!

Well wishes....

Sandy ♦

[amaria]

You will beat this. Stay on this forum, so much support is here. post as many times as you need to. We're all here for you. Hang n there. :)

[whoa1]

Thank you.  I do feel comfort when reading @ other people's stories & how they were able to overcome them.  I have to find some thing to believe in, that's for sure. You're very kind.

[amaria]

And don't forget, people need people. Though alot of us shame ourselves, addiction is a disease. You'd be surprised how many people would be there for you if you reach out as hard as you need too. The people on here are beyond supportive. Stick around, keep posting. :)

[amaria]

Hang in there Whoa. And I understand where your coming from. I used to ask that same question myself. After gettin one on one with the Bible, I started understanding more and more what I didnt before. Just for myself, I read, and read. That way it wasn't anyone "telling" me. I have learned that God doesnt allow anyone, children, animals,etc. To be hurt. Man does, unfortunately. God gives us everything we need, and already have to live our best life. I dont wanna sound like I'm Bible beating. I've been nuturing my christianity for years now. And I'm always, still learning myself. You can find faith in anything, rather it be yourself, family, children etc. And its hard, constant believing and work. But can be done, if you pull down from your gut and fight for it. Addiction is powerful, I have a few. My faith is stronger, thats what gets me through. Please don't feel defeated. You already have alot of what you need to beat it. Don't give up. :)

[whoa1]

What do you do when over the years, because of "your problem", you have cut yourself off from family & friends. I am not a religious person, but I really wish I could just have that blind faith that seems to come to others so easily.  I often wonder what kind of God would let the evil & horrendous things happen to the helpless, especially children, if he or she is indeed all-powerful. After spending so many years isolated, I wonder if it is even worth it anymore to try & live a "normal" life.

[amaria]

Thanx Minn. I also follow Joel Osteen. Love him. If u have OWN network (Oprahs network). T.D. Jakes will be on at 9pm tonite eastern time. Can't wait for that mental "butt whoopin" tonite.lol. Ttyl :)

[minn66]

Amaria, I look to those same people for inspiration. Hubby introduced me to Tony Robbins books and they are great. A coworker told me about TD Jakes and I have been reading him as well. I am so glad you are doing so well! Keep it up!

[amaria]

Thanx Gunn, my post got cut off,lol. I cont. It under yours. :)

[amaria]

People I have been "overdosing" on and their stories, are. Faith, cant say it enough. Faith. Whatever you believe, you have everything to achieve. You have to WILL it. And do the work. Too many times we ourselves, limit ourselves. Another thing I noticed, mindset, and fighting for it. Again, takes alot of work and consistancy. But CAN be done. And the obvious, we are human. We need people, support, love, patience etc. All of these things are key to any successes in life. I'm just puttin all this out here in hoping I can help one of you. If not many. I'm not done, not even on Day 1 off the subs. And working minute by minute sometimes towards many of my personal goals. I refuse to waste my time on fear, fear can be turned to power. It pretty much takes the same energy, sometimes fear takes more energy. But again, something that I will overcome, as I do the work. I'm writing all of this in hopes to maybe help one of you in taking your life back. Today is OUR day.

[gunn73]

good show Amaria.