Thanks for the encouragement, i'm very grateful.
I have to say last night was a real battle, i was extremely restless and agitated and i felt weakness in me, i even shed a few tears for putting my dumb *** self in this situation. Since i took my last pills it has been 75 hours as of right now, and i'm so eager for these w/d's to pass me over.
I feel like it's my body punishing me for putting that vile drug into it for so many years, and now i'm being taught a lesson. Well i have to say then lesson learnt, because i don't want to relive the way i'm feeling now ever again.
I'm going to try the music thing you suggested and might even take a midnight walk around the neighborhood if i can't sleep tonight.
Glad to see u still pushing forward! I was trying to remember what I did to keep my brain occupied....I have a sound meditation cd that I listened to and MUSIC. Put my headphones in and blasted the music! Tried to find funny, upbeat stuff to listen to. Otherwise I was looking at the clock every 5 minutes! Keep trucking forwards...your almost there with the physical part....are u considering aftercare as that is extremely necessary to STAY clean?
Cheers guys, your kind words are much appreciated. I have reached a milestone, 48 hrs cold turkey and going strong, in the last 5 or so years i have never been this long without popping those little pills.
To motye51 the aches and the pains aren't bothering me, i just deal with them and the sleepless nights and twitchiness surprisingly aren't even bothering me because honestly i just expected it to be like that and i'll just do my best to shake that **** off.
What is getting to me is the constant anxiety and how slow time seems to be passing. In my mind it feels like i stopped taking those pills about a week ago, then i snap back to reality and think wow it's only been two days. Keeping my mind occupied is a constant battle as i find in the state i'm in i don't really have the patience to sit and occupy myself for too long.
Anyway i really just wanted to rant a bit, and to krisnile, i wish i could say more to you than just good luck, oh but let me just say when you are done with your chemo and have won that battle, i'm sure someone with the strength to face up to what you are facing will no doubt be successful with becoming drug free.
So how are u feeling today? Definately thinking of u and hoping u push through this as it can be done, and u can do it! Gatorade, epsom salt bathes for sure which helps a lot with the aches and pains.
I'm happy for you " keep it up!! Maybe one day I can do it...once I'm done with chemo.
Wow, thank you to everyone who has commented. I know you are all strangers but from the bottom of my heart thank you all, it's funny but these comments have strengthened my resolve, how bizzare.
Please let me inform you more about whats happening, so Nurofen plus is an over the counter medication that contains Ibuprofen 200mg and codeine phosphate 12.8mg.
I started on these little evils about 5 years ago when i was going through a divorce. I wish i could say i was naieve but i knew exactly that codeine would give me a bit of an escape. It has performed that function but not long after i started taking them i started to abuse it. I have realised for a long time now that this behaviour has to stop, but like OpenMind24hours said in a post above, i have received a blessing and been forced to go cold turkey otherwise i will lose my job and my ability to support my children.
It has now been 26 hours since i took my last tablets, the rest i threw down the drain, i have been flushing my system with water like a mad man, i am always going back and forth from the bath room haha.
There is no option but clean for me now, and i'm looking at this like a fight, it's my spirit vs the demon of addiction. My will is strong and my resolve great, but once again thank you all for helping to feed that resolve.
The job and the need to detox is actually a hidden blessing. I know you don't think so right now, but when you look back on this you'll know what I mean. Try and look at this as doing it for you and you alone. Jobs, people places and things come and go. We're all we have. It's very important to feel that you're worth it to yourself to get and stay clean. The most important mission right now is to concentrate on your detox. Look at the Thomas Recipe below and pick up those items. Also get some Epsom Salts for hot baths to help you sleep and calm you down. (there is a good thread going on Epsom right now in the forum). Try and keep your thinking completely out of the future for now. There is no room in your mind for the future and past when you have some serious detoxing to do right now in the present! Once you get clean you'll find everything much easier and palatable to deal with, including staying clean and then the job. First things first. Keep posting. We're here for you.
Yeah, I just googled it and the Wikipedia site doesn't mention the codeine, just the ibuprofen, lol, go figure! So this will be opiate w/ds which should take about 5/6 days for the physical part, but 4 days I believe is not going to happen. Are u doing this alone or do u have some help? Someone who can gather the things u will need to help u through this? Immodium, gatorade, vit c, potassium, high protein foods, etc? This can be done as most people on this site have done exactly what your doing now. It's going to suck...but push through. Get in bed, try to relax, and just hit it head on! Post when u feel like ****! It helps!
If I am correct it is ibuprofen and codeine. And you can buy OTC in some countries.
The codeine is what gets you. You are either going to have to taper down or just stop. It'll be several weeks of wds with the first week being the worse but you can do it. Your doctor can give you clonidine to help. Look up the Thomas recipe here for supplements that can help too. Drink lots of water try to eat keep moving because it will make you feel better. Try to get outside.
And keep posting here. Let us know how you are doing.
I don't know what nurofen is...I thought I knew most of the good ones anyway!!! What mg r they? How did u get a doctor to write u 10 pills a day?
What are you taking?
This won't be easy. Takes more than a couple days. Good luck