suboxone and klonopin detox and ritalin abuse

[jspark]

I have been on 16mg day (now down to about 12mg) of suboxone for about 2years  along with  1mg of clonazepam (generic klonopin) and 10mg 3xday of ritalin for adhd and anxiety issues. THE PROBLEM is I am trying to now be completely clean... because in NA i don't feel like I am fully and purely CLEAN! Suboxone is a godsend but i feel after two years i should try to work the NA program without a crutch. I've gotten down to about 10-12mg a day but it's hard to taper when I don't know how to do it (and im afraid to ask my pcp) in fear that I won't be able to do it and then she will cut me off and I will have to deal with uncomfortable withdrawals!! I"M dreading them so if anyone can guide me in the right direction with the taper time and dose changes and what I might expect that would be greatly appreciated.  Another drug that I want off of is the clonazepam. I want to be clean like yesterday and the more I think about taking less of my medication I get the devil on my shoulder saying "just take more"! NOT to mention I snort my ritalin every day. That is the one drug I really need for adult add. I am a scatter brain non-stop talkative inattentive weirdo freak without it, so I just want to stop snorting it and take that as prescribed. As you can see I'm a struggling addict trying to recover and by nature seem to sabotage myself even when I have the best of intentions!  Anyone interested in sharing your EXPERIENCE, HOPE, STRENGTH , ADVICE... I look forward to reading your comments and suggestions! J-sPark

[ERAE13]

I went to treatment two years ago had clean time,,, dilemma now I just had my daughter 5 months ago, had surgery and was givin pain pills .. Now im smoking roxys , tar, also abusing adorall like 100 mlgs a day, then I take benzos to calm my anxiety and sleep. im always out of my scripts 2 weeks early,,, and im just so tired of this life again.. I got prescribed beaupernorpheron today ,,spelled wrong,,, as well as my addy clonopin and xannax... Drs just give what ever u want..my point is im out of control living this crazy secret life of addiction, my husband and 9 year old see my weight loss and that dreaded two weeks when I run out... I need to get myself back.... im no rookie and I know its all about me and truly wanting to stop but  said than done.... I need to come clean and give hubby my addy script and tapper, take my sub as prescribed, only 2mlgs,, and take my insomnia benzos as prescribed.. But I cant,,,,,why,,, I feel lonely and all my fair weather addicted homies are all I have. So its time to woman up and just deal with it.... I just needed to vent. Anyone else going through this

[refusingbondage]

Hello and welccome.  You seem to know what you need to do.  Definitely taper down the subs.. also this is important -- you cannot just quit the klonopin.  Quitting a benzo (like xanax, valuim or klonopin) can be dangerous and you can have seizuers.  You cant do it cold turkey and will need to slowly taper off that as sell.  

I think the first thing you need to do is come clean with your doctor.. Work on a tapering schedule.  Also you have already said you need to stop snorting Ritalin.. Its difficult for an addict, any addict, to take any medication as prescribed.. if you truly need the ritalin, then this is something you will have to really try hard at.. I would suggest having a family member hold them and dose it out each day and watch you swallow it.. sounds harsh but Im an addict too, and I know myself.  lol

Bottom line is if you want to change, you can. If you want it bad enough  you will find the strength and work towards this goal... Lots of good advice and support here.. your in the right place.  Good luck!

[mom_of_two136]

I have friends who would drop 2mg and stabalize there for a week or two then drop again. They got down to about 0.25mg then would start skipping days before jumping. They had very little trouble but everyone is different. Suboxone reacts differently in people so what may work for some may not work for others. Try to research this as much as possible. Do not rush it. Let your body tell you that you are stabalized and ready to decrease. I guess for me I do not really worry about being "clean". For me, it is more important that I am ready and have made the changes in my life that will keep me from going back to that addictive life. It almost destroyed me and if it takes medication from keeping me from killing myself then so be it. I do not plan on staying on suboxone forever but I know I need to work on several aspects of my life before I wean completely off of suboxone. I am currently weaning myself off. I am at 8mg and it was bumpy for a few days but now I am stabalized and I feel good. I will drop again in a weeks time. I go to AA right now because I have found a home group that is very accepting of all types of addicts and really work on the solution. I really wish you the best of luck. You can do this. Do not be scared. There are plenty of people on this forum that are doing it so hopefully you will hear from them. Best wishes and God Bless