hi! i am new and not quite sure how to respond . i want and need to be clean, not just because i was caught. every day for years has been all about getting pain meds, ie: mostly darvocet. i need help now, i am ashamed to show my face at this pharnacy, and do not how i will ever call the dr's office again,much less, seeing him.
i want to know if i can do this myself?
i did make a appt.with suboxone dr. that i have gone to before, many times,failed. he will see me on friday.
i need my life back, nobody aware except my husband how addicted i am.
i do not want to die ,i want to live.
god, i have three beautiful granchildren ava,ryan and olivia. i am happy only when i am with them.
i have quite a history,could take me days to tell. i am trying to let go of the quilt and shame of yesterday , live for today and hope for a future.
i will be free of alcohol 2 yrs next month, i never thought i could stop. it had become a nightmare.i lost my daughter age 20 in a car accident and drank away the grief. it was there waiting for me when i got sober. i drank long before.she died to cope with everyday life .she would hate for me to use her death a excuse to drink.