the fear of getting clean

Question

Hi Guys-
im on day 4 of my detox-using sub(2 mgs)-yesterday i did 1 mg-BAD DAY!Couldn't move-cried alot-and craved-but i made it thru-this is my last day using sub-so i don't need to w/d from that too-which led me to relapse after my last go round w/ the sub-(6 weeks)..Im here to find out-from others detoxing-the depression for me-is out of control-i get into states of wanting to just die-my emotions come back full force-i beat myself up-and really hate myself-But i must not want to die-since im trying to get clean-but my mind is off..Does anyone else get these kind of feelings-just holding on-minute/minute..I slept as much as i could-to shut down all the craziness-took some benzos for the anxiety/sleep-it helps for short periods of time..
Just need a little support to get through this-someone tell me-this will pass-
its pure fear..
Blessings to all-
alice

scaredmom330 · Answer

it does get better every day...you can do this, you have to make up your mind you are going to do this...be strong, try to stay busy.walk or exercise... have you tried the thomas recipe or Amino Acid Protocol, they both help alot, I heard nothing but good things about them and lots swear by them...remember to drink lots of fluids, and eat when you can...take care, remember one day at a time...keep posting and reading threads...we are here for you...keep fighting the fight!!

10356 · Answer

Yes it will pass....  Tackling wd mentally is about as important as getting all the things that you believe that will get you thru.. You believe being the key word.. If you believe you will be in hell you will.. Tackling this as if were a war is a good way.. You are not going into battle with the attitude you are going to die.. you set aside fear.. doubt and you kick ***.. use what is at your disposal to combat this.. get out and walk can't walk exercise.. this will help with anxiety and depression.. know that it will pass this is only temporary it is a non binding part of wd and will pass.... Get over the fear and embrace life you have a lot to look forward to.. I wish you well in your war.. Remember you are stronger then the symptom.. I wish you well.. lesa