therapy 4 the mind

[pasttime]

I have my dr's appointment today and I really want to speak to him about therapy. I was in there last week and he told me that he knew I was going to other dr's for meds and he was pretty mad at me. He hasn't given me anything other than ultram in about 6 months but he also thought I was through with the loracet that he had been perscribing the 8 months prior. When he found out about me going to other dr's he said he couldn't trust me and he only gave me a few of the ultram and said I had to come back every week and check in with him to get more and so he knows I am not shopping any more. How do dr's find out about this kind of stuff? I am really trying to staighten up and I haven't used in 6 days but I am always able to do this I just can't keep myself off of them. I thought this would be a good reason to see a therapist. Any advice on this from anyone. I really want to kick this thing.

[rodewc]

Tho I am barely clean (11 sober hrs w/ a Sierra Nevada to help), I am opting for an elective operation this summer. I have decided that even if I have to CTWD again, imagine being PAIN FREE... My doc tells me the chances are 78%. Being a card player, I take those odds in a NY minute.. so if yr odds are good for a cure, I say.. Third time's a charm.. irregardlesss:)) of what I may think a minute from now.

Rode WC~

[Thomas03]

My advice, my O so metrically named friend, is to shutup, take the goddamn drugs and heal. The more post-op pain you suffer, the poorer you'll heal. It's as simple as that. Heal and then detox off the meds. You've done it before. You know how. It's a learned skill, ya know. It's like making it to Carnegie Hall, yes?

Most or all of us will have to use pain meds again. Some of us hope it's sooner than later LOL, but the majority will take it as it comes. For you, it's come. So take the gnarly Schedule II mega-narcs with the death sentence in some third world countries and rejoice!

Thomas

[kilo]

See what happens whem I leave for a few days. My computer said "the hell with it" and blew up my power supply. Forty bucks later and I'm back to grammer class.
Rodewc - no offense taken. In fact it took me about 20 minutes to read through your post, I had to pick myself off the floor a few times, my sides hurt so much do to laughing.

Well, on a different note...just got my MRI back from my shoulder (you know the one they have already "fixed" twice before). First words out of the ortho's piehole was "That thing looks like ****, you need surgery". Of course when I asked if this was possible without pain meds, he laughed for 2 minutes straight. So decisions, decisions...Live with the pain, which really sucks and just getting worse or take my chances after 45+ days of being clean. The ortho doc did mention a pain pump which drips marcane into the wound for the first 4 days and should really put a damper on the pain. But, he said after the pain pump runs dry you are going to need some pain medications.

Any advice would be appreciated. Well take care my fellow long distance friends, and irregardless, oops, **** I did it again
Regardless I would love to hear back from you.
Peace

Kilo

[rodewc]

You may be gettin' slaughtered, but you have a tremendous sense of humoUr. Thx:)))~~

[Thomas03]

I, for one, don't hate AA. I owe AA a big one. Before I went to AA and NA meetings, I felt totally alone in my addiction, an object of shame. The only thing that gave me relief from this feeling was using. Just realizing that we're by no means alone and that it's not shameful to be who we are is, IMHO, the single most important step any of us ever takes toward recovery.

Thomas

[theGolden1]

Irregardless is not a word? Everyone hates AA and irregardless is not a word ... damn, I'm getting slaughtered around here ..