Got home last night

[CadillacJack]

This is day 4 c/t. I feel pretty beat & somewhat depressed.This evening, I've read several posts from people that still keep a stash. That's me too. I put them all (300 + 10mg. hydrocodone) in the trunk of my car, to start with. Them I went out there, put what few I've carrying with the rest, and rolled in all in a ball of duct tape. I still have them, but they're really hard to get to. Do it in whatever way you can to keep them out of easy reach. Maybe my next step against them will be a fire. Anyway, they will go soon. The best i could do at the time.

[hopsing94]

Man I know what ya mean. I get so mad at myself at times for letting myself get into this position. I think back on the days when I used to go to the gym,play softball,play golf and had energy to do whatever I wanted and now I can't go 4-5 hours without a pill and think about them constantly.

[CadillacJack]

Yeah, hopsing. I must be crazy. Keeping them is a "fear" thing. I intend to never take another one. I'm ashamed, and more than a tad angry with myself for getting here, and then staying for so long.

[hopsing94]

Jack its obvious you are in w/d and not in a rational state of mind,if you were you would still have those pills. However what you did is remarkable and should be commended.
GREAT JOB.

[mommy52713]

wow that is so awsome that just goes to show how bad you really want this awsome job keep up the great work you are on your way to a whole new life. congrats on day 4 it will only get better from this point on

[cathy5841]

wat to go cadillacjack.  that is super! hats off to you.  keep on keepin on.  you gonna do this.
cathy

[hopsing94]

DUDE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  300 pills that is MAJOR. You must want this really bad.
Jack all I can say if you did that you should be able to do this. On day 4 even. I would of and damn near did kill on day 4 for just one pill. GREAT JOB

[mimi1313]

You did the right thing!! That must have been hard.

[virgo1969]

It's a good thing that you flushed them as hard as it was. That is a very big move. Your mind will play tricks on you now but be strong and fight those cravings! You can do this. I am on 2 months clean from vic's and every day is better.

Congrats! :)

[CadillacJack]

Yeah, that "pulled over " can get pretty real. No sweat there. I just cut off the tape, and flushed them all. Seemed a pretty big move, but I'm glad it's done. I will ponder on it awhile. That a lot of dope.

[virgo1969]

Just be careful that you can explain the stash in the trunk of your car if you happen to get pulled over. Have your script handy.

Congrats on day 4! That is awesome.

[mimi1313]

Day 4 is great, the physical part is almost done. Now the mental part will begin. The best thing would be to get rid of the pills. You will want one eventually.
Having them there will be be too mcuh temptation.

Good luck,
Melissa

[LONESOME]

Congrats on you 4 day c/t, and the depresion well it come with it but it will get better I guess when I say I guess is because I'm doing sub but I know the first days I was the same way. And yes you should burned them or run then over with you car or something like that but don't keep them that is the worse thing you can do even if they are hard to get to. ok Welcome back
GS