day 9..finally little better

[donefornow]

Day 9 off opiates...kicking methadone at home...was complete nightmare...thought was losing my mind...last night was day 8...yesterday was terrible..seemed worst then day 6 and 7...at night was kicking hard...my leg was straight up kicking...I was pacing the house...walking around it. 20 times cause i could not sit still...I crawled to the bathroom...I was losing all hope..I really gave in last night...anxiety was just too much for too long...looked throughout the whole house for pills...couldnt find any...took a bunch of benadryl and finally was able to go to sleep...I hadn't eaten in 4-5 days...was not looking forward to getting up today..could not take one more second of withdrawals...I was freaking out cause people were telling me to take a walk..take a bath..eat something...I could do none of those things..I could not even fathom eating, or walking, talking, or anything except wanting to die....But today woke up and felt  good....not great but good....I was in shock...I knew there is long long road ahead of which im scared of...but today, I woke up..went out got breakfast at diner, cleaned my car..went to couple of meetings, i had a little color in my face...and it didnt seem like it took any effort...I posting this for anyone that is going thru withdrawals right now to hang in there..for me it didnt seem like it would end..anxiety and crazy thoughts would not leave me......but it somehow does if you stay away...dont beat yourself up if can't do anything...I wanted to use cause I couldnt eat or go in public..thought there was something wrong with me...thought was losing my mind...hang in there...it does get better...

[worried878]

Geez!  congrats to u...what was ur methadone dose?  that is heavy duty wd if u were at a relative dose for a long time...dont forget about the aftermath tho,,,dont wanna rain on this wonderful acheivement..someone who can do what u did can do anything!  never forget that..keep us posted

[avisg]

That is GREAT. Keep it up you are doing it the right way

[candothis247]

congrats to you big time... you've made it thru the most fearful part! keep it up

[monkeymonika]

9 days wow, last time I tried it cold turkey i only lasted 3 days and then i had to go to the doctors. I did spend a lot of time in a hot bath. that was the only thing that calmed my legs down. it really sucked, you should be over the worst of it.

m.

[Geddy]

Congrats on the 9 days.  stay strong, and KEEP BUSY!!!!  its so important to keep busy and exert as much energy as you can.