This disease does NOT discriminate!

[motye51]

I come on here today because I'm at a loss for words.  I can't concentrate, I can't meditate, I'm having trouble working.....On Saturday I recieved a call from a family friend (by marriage) that was screaming hysterically.  I couldn't fully understand what she was saying so I had to get her to stop and I had to re-ask her what she was saying.  Her son was found dead in his apt on Saturday from a heroin overdose.  Her husband and 2 younger boys found him.  She had spoken to him that morning telling him his dad was on his way, so don't go back to sleep!  Tomorrow, we will be putting this kid in the ground.  I am reminded every damn day that this is a deadly disease and will take anyone!  This kid came from a good family, academic scholarship, played sports, but an addict!  Sometimes I hate this disease b/c there is no guarantee who it will take.  He was only 21 years old.  His parents put the help in front of him....he chose not to take it, as many of us addicts do.  This kid had only been using for a few months (heroin I mean)......and he's now gone.  He's leaving behind a devestated set of parents that just don't know what to do and 6 brothers that are all lost now!  This family will be forever changed......I HATE THIS DISEASE!  I know I have it, I know I am treating it........but DAMMIT WHY DOES **** LIKE THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN????  I think my higher power put me in this position (for it to be soooo damn close to home) for a reason....

[gnarly_1]

Hey Motye  ...it always brings me sorrow to read something like this....21 so young with his whole life  in front of him.....this disease has taken my sister/in/law michell at 43 and left 3 kids to raise by her older sister all she was trying to do was get out of back pain but over did it... this country is in a heroin epidemic...the mexacan cartels are flooding the streets with it ...it is a lot cheeper then street pill and so many get swept off there feet by it  right now somoe is dyeing every 19 min do to the opiet crisis.....more the auto death and gun violence combined....it is always hard when it stricks close to home ...please take care of yourself leave your feelings at a meeting dont bottle this up.....my condolences go out to you and the family..........Gnarly....................

[spider6]

Motye, so sorry to be reading this.  Many prayers of comfort, peace, .......so sad.  Warm hugs.

[Ben727]

Motye, I'm very sorry for your loss. It's such a shocking tragedy when a young person dies so senselessly. As a parent, this kind of thing scares me to death.

I don't know if you remember, but we had a good exchange of ideas on a journal I posted a few years ago: http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/1560389/Legalize-It

My views on this topic haven't changed. Until we, as a society, do something differently, young people are going to continue dying.

[dominosarah]

I am so sorry.  This is always so heartbreaking.  I hope in time you will all find some peace from this tragedy.  I always find myself angry and grateful at the same time when i hear this sort of news.  This addiction does not discriminate and none of us are exempt from death when in the throws of active addiction.  I am in a situation right now with a family member and i hope and pray this wont be the outcome.  Heroin is here and 2 counties away the od's are mounting.  Today lets all be grateful for our recovery, our programs and our support systems.  Praying for all the desperate hearts still out there~

[jifmoc]

That's an absolute shame. The ONLY slight good that may come from this is another reminder to us, to not think "I got this" and to continue to stay in meetings, call sponsor, do the work etc. Sorry for your loss, Motye.

[KC617]

Sorry to hear about the loss of another on of us! I myself have 2 family members still using who I had to break ties with and lost one other too! I know the pain of both sides all to well! I will be praying for this family!

[vicki595]

Very sad for everyone and the young man.  "There for the grace of God..."  I say this everyday because it could have been me or you with a devastated family left behind.

We are so selfish as addicts in the thick of disease and I remind people that we have a huge responsibility to the people who love us.  We need to think of them and fight to get better.  It usually falls on deaf ears...

I'm sorry for the trauma to you. Stay strong.

[motye51]

We are freaking selfish.....so damn selfish!!!