I was taking around the same amount as you. At first it felt like the symptoms would never end. I am on day 9 and finally am getting feelings of normalcy. It will be very hard at first, but I am now feeling like I am on the mend. Lethargy is still there, but I feel better than if I took a couple of pills less than what was normal. Stop for good, go ahead and do it now before it gets out of hand any further. Otherwise you will be looking back with a worse addiction wishing you had because you would be feeling normal by then.
Dont use the Tramadol and be careful with the Xanax. They are both very addicting.
When will it start? I do have some xanex & tramadol will that help? I know I can't continue this way. It does'nt even make me feel good anymore. Its just making me depressed & tired. I am too young to do this for the rest of my life.
Each time gets worse than the last time. Expect at least 5-7 days of physical w/d and another week or two trying to get back together. Join an NA or AA meeting so this doesn't happen again. Oh and you will need to do more than 'wonder' if this time is for good. It takes the deepest commitment you have ever made to make this work. Good luck, we are here for you.
"When your desire to get clean, is stronger than your desire to use. Then, you will get clean" GTMI