Step Five

[Punkinhead75]

"Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs."

  Taken from The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions  pg 55

Once we get done listing our resentments, shortcomings and character defects and understanding the root causes of them we move on to the fifth step.  This was and still is important to me because it means I am no longer alone with my secrets.  For long time I drank and drugged to forget about the things that bothered me.  Weather they happened today or when I was a kid I still used to forget.  There was plenty of stuff that I was aware of.  Things I had already admitted to myself and carried with me.  Sharing them with God was fairly easy too.  I pretty much go outside, look up at the sky and start unloading.  The tough part for me was sharing with somebody else.  This is the part that needed a lot of humility ( I suggest looking that word up.  It means something totally different than what I thought it meant) and courage.  Sharing what was going on inside me just wasn't something that I did.  

Once I did do it though I got more relief.  I felt as if a huge burden was lifted and a sense of freedom settled in.  The nice part about cleaning house and getting rid of the crap is that there is now room for the good stuff to grow.  Using the steps was actually working and I could begin to get grateful for the life I have today.  That will lead us into step six.  Thanks for letting me share.

[ibizan]

we know ppl lurk and read.....and if it helps then its all worth it!:)if someone gets curious to go 2 a meeting thats an added plus as well!

[Punkinhead75]

Hi again,

Have no fear.  I think others are reading too.  I've been posting on the substance abuse forum and have gotten some other posts.  If nothing else it's helping us stay sober today.  God Bless!!