alcohol withdrawals

[mustang78]

i have relapsed and am scared to call my doctor who detoxed me in the first place....using librium and phenobarbital....felt great for months and then gradually started to drink again....now am binge drinking daily and get tremors if i stop....is there an online doctor that can give u the rx...i know the protocol to get through this but i know my physician will want to send me to rehab...i cant do rehab right now....thanks for any help

[Nighthawk61]

Good to hear you're back and receiving help from us, the doctor and the "program". You're a wise soul. You deserve your best life. Keep up the good work.

That being said, you did not "gradually" start to drink. You relapsed when you took your first drink, and when we recognize that it is the first drink that matters, we are able to better control taking that first drink, or worrying about that first drink. You failed yourself, on your first drink, and you supported yourself on your last. Now you have to deal with the wasted time in between.

It's important to have a sponsor in AA, so that you can discuss wanting to take that first drink, before you do. If you do relapse, it's important to have a sponsor that can catch you immediately after you fall, not a few days or weeks later.  The great thing is that you're going to a meeting. I always suggest that a closed same sex meeting, is the best place to go to be able to make friends and sponsors most easily, it worked for me, and I hope it works for you too. Best wishes Mustang. Please keep posting and keeping yourself accountable. I applaud your courage. You deserve your best life.

[OpenMind24hours]

Mustang that's wonderful news! I know what you mean about wanting the sober life back. I took my surrender chip in October. Keep us posted on how you're doing and of course feel free to comment under other people's post on here. Message me anytime you want on here I'd love to hear from you.

[dominosarah]

I am so glad to hear you called your doctor and he is on board with helping you.  You deserve to have your sober life back so do whatever it takes and hold yourself sacred, your life depends on it~

[mustang78]

i called my doctor yesterday and he is going to help....thanks for yallls replies....and yes i am an alcoholic and had quit going to aa meetings....i am going to a meeting today and picking up a chip....i want my sober life back......

[dominosarah]

You are still trying to do this your way and doing it your way got you in this mess to begin with.  You need to get honest with yourself and your doctor.  Ordering rx's on line is very dangerous as you dont know if you are getting the real stuff or not.

[OpenMind24hours]

Hello Mustang. Call your doctor who first detoxed you. You didn't mention if you're alcoholic, but alcoholism is a disease, not a social problem. Relapse is common with the disease and I'm sure your doctor will understand. Don't worry, they just want to help us. It's what they got in the business for.

As far as my story goes; l stay sober by going to AA. I surround myself in the atmosphere of recovery with other alcoholics. I could never do it alone. My own thinking won't fix my own thinking. In fact my own thinking caused me to end up in AA in the first place. I found I needed to change, because if I don't change nothing changes. I tried quitting on my own to no avail. I needed a program that offered me something to be accountable for. Sometimes my worst thinking takes over. I once stopped going to meetings. Got too busy with other stuff. I soon found out that when I'm on my own, I start to think I'm not worth it anymore. And then one day I drank. it got much worse than the last time. No matter how long we stay sober we pick up lower than where we left off. Once we get the disease we got it. It don't ever go away, it just lurks, waiting to slay us.

Keep posting about this. Congratulations on wanting your life back!