vomiting blood

[townie8394]

I'm a 46 yr. old alcoholic. This past month my drinking has gotten progressively worse. This past week, I threw up blood twice. On both occasions I hadn't eaten all day, just drank many beers. There was no stomach pain. I felt acidity in my esophagus, throat? I forced myself to eat afterward, even though I had pain swallowing. I felt fine the next day. I'm scared to death, but I'm still drinking. I know I need help but I'm scared to quit. I've already been in rehab once. Was sober for a few months and fell off the wagon again. In my 20's i was hospitalized for anorexia, bulimia. I've seen numerous therapists, psychiatrist, but I feel like I'm a lost cause. Once one addiction is tamed, the other one surfaces. All I've seen to get out of the help I've gotten is more debt. Do I have to hit bottom (god forbid what that may be) to stop. HELP!

[townie8394]

Just wanted to let you know that I'm new to this site and I think I sent a msg. to your personal page? If so, sorry. And also, thanks for caring

[Louise111]

You have the strength to stop drinking...it's hard, but it can be done.....I hope my husband's sobriety is not "Too Little, Too Late".....but he's never smoked or drank coffee....always was an athlete, football, baseball, golf...always walked 4 to 5 miles a day, at a quick pace....maybe God will give him one more chance, or a least 2-3 more years.  We sold our lovely home in CT and built our dream home in FL.....for our retirement....we both had great careers in Law Enforcement...he did 31 years, I did 20.  We've been down here 3 years....I'd hate to lose my husband....a beautiful house, nice cars, don't mean a thing if you lose the one you love, and who loves you.  Sorry to hear about your daughter....my friend had Bell's Palsy a few years ago....he's fine now....when he's tired, one of his eyes "droops" sort of....we just laugh and say, "oh well, guess you're tired.   Be strong, Townie......this is a wonderful life, sober, more so than with a 'buzz'......my husband is naturally a quiet guy, a little shy, not a great public speaker....he thought drinking made him the "life of the party", a funny guy....very sociable and talkative....but you know, most everyone said that they like him better, quiet and reserved....more respectable, not that he was ever nasty....just to corny, especially at weddings....he'd want to dance with all the gals......they would to humor him.....but you can tell when someone thinks "too much is too much".... Anyway, I'll wish you the best of luck.  No one knows our fate on this earth....only our Almighty Father, so celebrate each day, enjoy the moment, do not dwell on the past, nor obsess about the future.  Take each day slowly and simply.  God bless.  Hope to hear from you.  This site gives me comfort to be able to speak with other folks with the same issues of concern.
Sincerely,
Louise111

[MJIthewriter]

You're welcome. I sent you a message  back.  Though I cannot fully relate to your experiance, I do try to reach out and help people in general. I'm a writer and through my research, I've come to read several stories both sad and inspiring. From what I've read, some people thought they were hopeless, but found faith in something and worked hard at it. Having faith in a higher power seems to really help those people who have shared their stories I've read.

[Louise111]

I just re-read your first posting.....even though you vomitted blood.....that is a subtle sign.  My husband used vomitg a little blood,  had acidity in stomach for a long time; he used to take "Gaviscon" like it was candy....that was at least 10 years ago.....if he quit drinking back then (at age 52) he'd be in great health now.....if whatever damage he did to his liver back then was not more serious than a 'fatty' liver, then his quality of life would be normal now....fatty liver is probably a Stage 1 Liver Disease condition....then it gets worse....Fibrosis, Hepatitic, Cirrhosis......the Liver is the only organ in the body that can 're-juvenate' itself, provided it's not too far gone, like Cirrhosis.  So, if you are just starting to throw up a little blood.....then you can still stop drinking and get healthy.  You're still young, heck, I'm 56 and 46 seems like yesterday.   In 10 years, you'll be 56, and you'll say that you've been sober and healthy for 10 years.  It's not easy, probably the hardest thing you will ever do in your life, but the most important thing you will ever do.  You will treat your body like a temple, in homage to God, who gave you life.  He only gave us one body, one set of organs, one 'trip' on this earth....some of us stay longer thans others, don't know how God plans it that way, or why, but that's how it is.  We have to treasure each moment on this earth, for we will never "pass this way again".  We will never 'repeat' March 10, 2003, for example!!!  God Bless, stay strong.  Talk to you soon.
Fondly,
Louise111

[susieq87]

It could be a bleeding ulcer, very serious stuff.  You'll quit when you have decided enough is enough.  I don't feel you necessary have to go back into treatment.  Go to AA Get a Sponsor.

[Jacker]

I sent you a message back - have a great day.  I'll keep you in my prayers.