im at a loss...

[raquelplus2]

im beginning to be convinced that iam not right in the head anymore...im watchn the oprah show regarding a single mom of 2 who lost it n killed her kids and attempted to kill herself to...i dont think i would ever in my life do that but i also no im not okay...ive wanted to so badly go and see a doctor go and get counseling. and it ends up to being i dont have time around working 10 to 630 n i dont have a sitter its time thats going against me on me helping myself plus to take time off would kill my income that i need soo bad....i no somethings wrong i no im not normal i no i got very bad anger issues n im scared that im gonna get so frustrated with the kids that ima snap...im tired of yelling and crying n its even to the point where my bf asked me if i was bi polar...that hit me hard. i mean im tryn to hold it together n be okay but im not  i cant handle any of my kids crying anymore i flip out n yell n put them in there room n im scared i might do something i dont wana do or would ever think of doing before...i snap at my grama my mom everyone im just soo angry so mad so mean i feel heartless i feel i need to be alone  i just dont know what to do...somethings wrong..

[tekmanmike]

I know EXACTLY what you mean, I was the same till I got on lithium, what your experiencing is beyond your control, you will NOT get better on your own-you absolutely need to see a doctor. I know what your going through, except I had a psychotic break and thought everyone was against me, I thought none of them were real and had an idea that I could see if they were real by killing one of them, but then thought the better of it. Please don't let it go that far. I swear, you need medication. Try lithium, it saved my life.
Mike

[ILADVOCATE]

There are mental health centers that could provide outreach while you receive the help you need. It would be best to seek help now and they could help address any concerns you have that might prevent this in the meantime.