Mom Died, Want Hep-c txt...Manic/More Lows

[Frankie46]

My Doctor is afraid to start me on my Hep-C treatment, Because I am Bipolar/...Last 6....More Downs...My Mind is Racing..My body can't catch up...I used to be able to clean,I swear, I can paint a entire block..lol..
I was on Savella, For Fibromylia...Once Mom Past, A Month Ago, I have completely forgotten.to take them...so it's out of my system.
I've also noticed, I have been losing & spending money..I have no clue & show for?
Without leaving my apartment..Go figure!!! Ordering, giving $$ away..I Don't HAVE! lol
I thinks it's called Hypomania? I Do Pay my bills.first.....I'm very.Forgetfull! Very Confused  :(  
Missed my Last Appt w my Shrink, thinking about getting on Prozac..<<IS THAT THE RIGHT CHOICE? TO CALM ME DOWN?
...Sodium intake...I was on Depakote, I blew up to 178, I'm only 5"1...Look like a little  walking washing machine!!  I was huge!!...lol..
.PS. not a private shrink..so I'm lucky if she looks @ me.. I am Angry..Confrontational Defensive,& I'm All Over The Place, A Simple Sentence is a Massive Mission for ME....... Dying Over My Mom...


Plzzzz Now I'm afraid of Prozac from What I have Read from Others who have Bipolar w Suicide...
Have No support From Family!! Basically I'm the Embrassment of The Family! Which I hide very Well,@ One Time,Now I have More Phobias! Paranoid!!  ..With My Mom Gone...I'm Severley Depressed..Suicide I have been in & Out of Hospitals throu-out the 90's...On Suicide Watch & Committed..& Escape to just have the cops get Me
I'm on medicaid (I am grateful) Everytime I call...for a new shrink..they don't take medicaid....(Huge Sigh)
Love This Site Thank You All~~~~**

[Frankie46]

Clinics Standing Room Only many aren't taking new patients, it's crazy I call my medicaid/hmo they send me list of Physicians,that are Residents # , No docs, retired, or dead..It's a joke. it's more who you know over here..in Jersey city.Connections from what hear & experienced...
I have none...
I'm in a Clinic..docs come & go..I have a female (shrink)she doesn't look me in the eyes..ever..I'm in & out..she's always on vacation..cancels my appts...

God I don't want to go to mental hosp...share a room w roomates farting 24/7!! I'm so full of Anger....I wanted to strangle...my last roomy! seriously..
not angry today..glad to say..try not to let everything get to me..but it's hard..
.anyway, I called 4 major clinics...5 times throughout months! .None are taking new patients...imagine that?!....I have here,10 mg of Prozac, not sure if it's good for Bipolar..I'm very serverly depressed now...

PS>> ILANVOCATE unless the only thing i can think of & I can't..sickens me..to go to mental hosp..i have family members working in 3 different hosps..On mental units....but they're embrassed of me..:(  i wouldn't think of going there...

[ILADVOCATE]

There should be clinics that take Medicaid and if you need treatment that is medically neccessary for any other condition they would have to think about medication interactions but they should be able to find a medication that would not interact and that would be safe for you.