Confused.

[HarryLostControlAgain]

I'm 15 and I got diagnosed with major depression around 4-5 months ago but have had it for over a year, I started to notice signs of bipolar disorder such as: Sometimes I can be really happy for no reason and then just suddenly become really down and back to my depressed self, I keep having hallucinations where I see and hear stuff that, for all I know, aren't there. I've done a lot of research on it and the symptoms and I seem to match every one. I go to a psychiatrist every fortnight and the last time I did mention my hallucinations but she didn't have an explanation for it, so I just thought I must be going mental and I was going to tell her today about the many signs of bipolar disorder but I suddenly felt really anxious and felt like she was secretly laughing and/or judging me while I was just talking about my depression and so I never spoke to her about it. I don't know what I should do and I've tried so many different sites to help me, but none of them seem to provide the information I need. I haven't spoke to anyone about this as I'm so ashamed of what they might/will think of me and just think I'm a nutter and I find it really hard to trust and confide in my friends or family, so I have to resort to these websites as it's my only hope. Please respond if you have some advice/information/all that jazz to help me with, it is greatly appreciated!

[WishfulSpirit]

You need to tell your healthcare provider that you're having symptoms of bipolar disorder, especially the hallucinations. If you don't it could get worse. If this person doesn't listen, find someone who will.

[ILADVOCATE]

  Yes the psychiatrist should be more receptive to what you are saying. Keep a mood tracker so that you can see when the various mood changes occur and then print out the results for them. Also see if the hallucinations come and go and if so when. Bipolar is different from depression but all the various psychiatric disabilities are responsive to treatment so its just a matter of working with your psychiatrist to find the appropriate diagnosis and treatment. As well these are some websites that have some information that can be of help that you can discuss with your psychiatrist:
http://www.medhelp.org/tags/health_page/34/Mental-Health/Useful-Bipolar--Depression-Webisites?hp_id=523