Could I be Bipolar? Urgent Help

[IceCreamy]

So last year, I started to become a different person. I was always crying and I was going insane. I had no energy whatsoever. I was violent, angry and I was what my parents would call 'psychotic'. I was having hallucinations and seeing people and hearing voices whilst being paranoid and I was worried that the whorl wanted to kill me and that I wasn't safe anywhere. I saw a psychologist who referred me to a psychiatrist. In the end she told me that I was a smart girl who was 'playing' my parents to make them think I was mentally ill. This was not the case and my parents do not know what to do. I was depressed back then, but now things are somewhat different. I was surprisingly getting straight A's until term 4, when things got bad. I was hyper, constantly talking because my thoughts were racing and my mouth couldn't keep up. I would do impulsive things and spend money like theres no tomorrow. Sometimes I told lies and stories about one friend to another to cause a stir. I was still paranoid and having hallucinations too. All this went away for 2 months and then bam, it was back again. It all started with my obsessions. When I'm hyper I get obsessions and I don't talk about anything but them. My current obsession is Titanic and I have watched it 151 times in 10 weeks. I am banned from speaking about it because I it's all I ever talk about. At school I'm hyper, I'm impatient and can't bare to hear my teachers talk. I tell them to shut up and I constantly interrupt them. I am risky, I even pierced my own belly button because I thought it'd be fine. I'm also impulsive when it comes to my art work, I paint 3 large canvas's a day (on weekends) and I turn the lounge upside down making sculptures with everything I can find. I talking a million miles an hour again and my thoughts are racing back and forth. I have so much energy that I could run a marathon in minutes. I can't concentrate, I feel like a tree because my thoughts keep branding out and getting side tracked. Last night I had some hallucinations and voices were telling me what to do and I'm convinced that my neighbourhood are watching me through their windows and everyone wants me dead. Even that my parents are trying to poison my food, therefore I wont eat it. I am violent and threaten to kill people, I feel like the 'King of the World!' Sorry, bit of a Titanic moment there. I'm unstoppable and it can get really scary. I only just got a part time job and I really enjoy work but...I need help, I want to be in a psych ward so I don't end up hurting anyone, or worse. The only thing is, what about work, I cannot afford to lose this job, it's my first job! If I voluntarily go in, will I be able to be taken to work by my mum if I am in a fit enough state? What do you think could be wrong? Also, my grades are dropping from straight A's to B's and C+. My mum thinks I'm bipolar but I'm not too sure. I'm not asking for a diagnosis, just a little help as to what your opinions are! please help!!!
Also, as you can see, my moods have gone from depressed to hyper. I don't know very much about bipolar but I know that it sounds like what I might have. Delusions and hallucinations are also a sign of mania and to be honest with you, I think I'm manic at the moment :(((((

sorry,they are a sign of psychosis which is a sign of sever mania. I have symptoms that are bipolar and not schizophrenia so I think it sounds more like bipolar but I'm not sure. How do I tell my mum? she knows that I'm experiencing psychosis, she said it herself and she knows theres a problem but i don't know how to tell her!! :(((

oh just to add, I go to sleep very late (normally I would at 7 o'clock) compared to normal, about 11 o clock and I don't need much sleep. I am so confident and no job or task it too difficult!!!

Sorry for this being so long but...A lot of people are saying it may be schizophrenia, in which it may well be, but...why am I having these mood changes, for the first part of my story I was depressed, not severely but it was definitely depression. After that I was hyper for a few weeks before my symptoms went away almost completely. Next they came back again, all rapidly at once and i have been hyper since...for the last 6 months or so. Therefore I believe it may be bipolar. Some people in severe manic episodes do get psychotic symptoms such as hallucinations and delusions. BTW I am only 14. I have tried telling my mum, seriously and i have spoken to a teacher who referred me to the school counsellor. My mum thinks its all and act and that I don't act weird when I'm around other people like my aunts and cousins but that is because I don't feel irritated by them like i do by my immediate f/amily. i don't know how to tell her because she doesn't believe me :( is there a way i can get myself to the hospital? oh and also on yahoo answers, people were saying "well maybe you could be faking it" but when I'm hyper, i don't even know what I'm saying and doing. I spend 99 percent of my life in hospital for my crohns disease and lung problems, why would i want to spend more time in there? I'm feeling quite normal atm its easier for me to explain these things :)))

[mixedsalad]

Get another opinion.  Get a diagnosis while you are still young.

[IceCreamy]

thankyou, no I'm not on steroids for Crohn's as they are a nightmare for me. I have been off them for years now (thank christ!). Oh I didn't really go into detail about my 'depressive' episode sorta thing last year. I was like this when I saw the psychiatrist and I would try to suffocate myself in my pillow because I felt as if there were no escape. I considered how much better my parents and families life would be without me and all in all, I wanted to be dead but I couldn't do it to my family. About three weeks ago, I had 3 days of feeling depressed, I was so close to ODing on my anti-inflammatories. Unfortunately my parents have no idea whatsoever about this because it's something that I would't feel comfortable telling them. So just a quick timeline
*beginning 2011, slightly depressed, leading to feeling like I wanna be dead and I wanted to die.
*end of 2011, hyper, crazy, hallucinations yadda yadda yadda
*beginning of 2012, nothing for about 2 months
*march 2012, for about 3 months hyper, hyper, hyper, angry, irritable and feeling grandiose.
*June, for 3 or 4 days feeling like I'm not worthy of anything, wanting to die
*June-present, hyper, worse than ever.

Also, how can I tell my mum this, when I am with my aunties or extended family I am not quite so hyper (I am, I just am occupied therefore it does;t show) and I am not irritable. This is because I use my extended family to go against my family, I tell them fibs about my family and stuff and i don't know that I'm doing it. I don't know why but I feel the urge to turn the rest of the family against them.

[lindahand]

Sounds like you need to see another psychiatrist. The first one you saw should be reprimanded.

There is something called SchizoAffective Disorder which is a mix of bipolar and schizophrenia, so you can have symptoms of both.

It is impossible to say for sure, but it does sound like you have some bipolarish things going on. The spending, the few months of normal and then it happening again. You don't talk about wanting to die or thoughts of death and you need that to be diagnosed bipolar.

I guess what I would ask your parent's if they say no to your request for help is "If I am faking it, what is my pay off? Do you really think I enjoy being like this? I just want to be normal"

If you are on steriods for Chrohns that could make a bipolar problem worse. By all means keep taking them, but that may make treating things a bit more complicated.

Beg your parent's to let you see another psychiatrist. I hope you can get the help you need. I have never heard of a psychiatrist telling someone what your did. You'd have to be stupid, not smart, to fake mental illness.