Diagnosis Wtihdrawn

[xiodinex]

Around 13, I was diagnosed ith 'Cyclothymia' which was changed to Bipolar II at 15. I've been put in in-patient care twice (for a total of 12 months), Intensive care once, and hospitalized countless times, all for suicide attempts, strange behaviour and self-harm. I was put on quetiapine, which sort of helped, it toned things down a little and helped me sleep, but didn't do much. I discharged myself from the first hospital since I wasn't sectioned, but overdosed on on 42 of my quetiapine three weeks later. I died once and went into a coma for four days and was in hospital for pneumonia since I ripped a tube out for four weeks afterward. Then I went into a second hospital. My quetiapine was stopped and my diagnosis withdrawn, and I only got worse. My behaviour become aggressive as well as irrational and self-destructive, and as a result of this aggression, was discharged from this hospital with no support, no medication and no diagnosis. My behaviour has toned down a little since I moved away from my mother who was causing a lot of it, but I still feel as if my diagnosis shouldn't have been withdrawn.

My moods swing to and fro frequently, if only mildly, but still disruptively. Some people don't quite get it, but I feel a little naked without a diagnosis. Without it I'm just another ****** up kid. This insinuates I have control over my actions, but I really feel that I don't, no matter how hard I try.

This isn't so much a question as trying to come to terms with it all, and asking for a little support.

[ILADVOCATE]

I agree with the other post but in addition to speaking to your psychiatrist we have some websites linked up about bipolar for informational purposes. Go to the welcome page. Also educate yourself as to what the available options are regarding mood stabilizers and antipsychotics. The newer antipsychotics such as Abilify, Fanapt and Saphris are less likely to cause weight gain and sedation. For myself, Lamictal was the best mood stabilizer in that regard and it stabilized mixed states and rapid cycling (which may be part of what you are describing but speak to your psychiatrist about that) but of course each person responds differently to each medication.

[cornyguy]

You seem to a case of Bipolar disorder with episodes of mania.Please consult your Psychiatrist and restart your medications at the earliest.

[Lisabeced]

God bless you for reaching out to us. I was finally diagnosed last month at the age of 49 with Bipolar Disorder II and Ehlers-Danlos Hypermobility type. Throughout my life I knew things weren't "right" but forged ahead anyway. I was so fortunate and blessed to have found a husband who was so calm and peaceful, he let me do my things but would rope me back in and encourage me to find the true issue.

The most important thing is to remember that you are not alone! There is help, it takes toughness to live each day without a diagnosis and reach out for help. Do not stop asking for help from trusted advisors and people who have knowledge. Continue to look for avenues, such as this website, to gather information and go informed to your healthcare providers and don't stop until you get answers.

I was written off as a klutz, clumsy, accident prone, hypochondriac, drama queen, exaggerator, liar, dreamer, moody, unable to complete anything, mean, too nice, angry, rude, passive--well, you get the picture. The great thing was that I had a family and friends who told me to keep seeking answers. Now that I have started medication, oh my I cannot begin to tell you how quiet and wonderful life has become. I cry each day with tears of joy that finally, finally I have a chance to live a life of peace, joy, and calmness. God bless you, LBC