Hello all, I'm new to the webpage but not the term bipolar. Have somewhat thought they dole that term out too loosely. However, I have some issues that are repeating themselves. At one time in life I simply self medicated when I felt a certain way (good or bad). Today I've adopted a healthier lifestyle. Yet I notice my irritability is almost always with me. Its as if I'm holding out to have a good day when I'm what I should be. Which I've accepted is not going to happen and I'm missing out on my life. I'm so irritable I can barely stand myself much less other people.
This is sad, but how I truly feel. I've added some things to my life that has helped me cope but hasn't been an answer. I'm drug, nicotine, and alcohol free. I thought this would help solve some of the problem. I'm looking for other tips. I sometimes have racing thoughts, sleepless nights, and I'm over emotional. I have mixed states at work such as I don't know if I'm going to go off or be ok or go outside and cry. I find I don't like myself much and lack support. Any suggestions where to start? I cry a good bit too but mainly the irritability and hating others is the part that bothers me most.