Emotionless Zombie

[barnacle]

Ok well dont really know which area to post this but whatever. Also not sure if im bipolar though i did have what could be classified as a manic state and i was diagnosed bipolar because of it among many other things. Here goes lately as in for about the past three years more like two and a half i don't show any emotion or feel any really for that matter other than despair because of my inability to show any emotion or connect with people. I hardly ever talk and when i do its because if i don't i will be perceived as weird. And It is always forced. This all began after my one i guess manic episode. I am currently on seroquel and have been for about six years i take it to sleep but am now getting off of it. Also i have been a drug abuser and used to smoke weed everyday but now when i smoke all i get is anxious and become even more withdrawn and quiet. I don't laugh or cry even when watching shows i used to laugh at all the time. I still appreciate the humor though don't laugh. Its as if the lever controlling my personality has been broken. My urges and instincts have been shut off. Leaving me feeling empty in a void of muted despair. I no longer feel like a person and its hard to love and be loved. My social velcrow is old and worn. Does anyone else feel this way or has ever felt this way and if you have did you come out of it? Thanks

[more0then0a0virus]

I agree with ILADVOCATE about visiting psychiatrist and drug effects. I recently took LSD after a year, and effects weren`t so intensive. I wasn`t able to enjoy like I used to... It s*cks.

I have also experienced inability to feel or relate to others. i can`t even hug people or something. Everything seems fake.  that started before quite some time. I`m not sure, but i think i found a way out, but it is a really bad way. I feel something, and that is a guilt, because of drinking problems i cause to my family...

[ILADVOCATE]

   Yes I have experienced emotional blunting but I have schizoaffective disorder. However this can occur in bipolar with psychotic features and other diagnoses. Bipolar itself can affect a person's ability to relate to people of course. You should discuss all this with your psychiatrist. Any form of recreational drug including marijuana can often worsen symptoms of any psychiatric disability and make a person less responsive to treatment so its best to discuss that concern as well. Sometimes dual recovery groups for a person with a psychiatric disability and substance abuse issue can be of help. Seroquel when used for sleep is generally at a different dose than when used to work as an antipsychotic or mood stabilizer but you should discuss the specifics of this with your psychiatrist as these concerns can respond to treatment.