When I got ill and couldn't perform my job. I felt really bad. The work project that I had was a real pressure cooker and I went into hypo mania. I said many weird things. I acted out of ordinary. Work in Progress Report Chart looked out of kilter. I had to drop out of the job because my illness flaired up.
Everyone at work knows I have BP - grapevine is alive and active.
No one got hurt and I wasn't verbal abusive. Nothing got delayed. I just acted like Robin Williams...in high speed. They never saw me in that state. It kind of took them by surprise and some got angry with me for acting so weird. It's been awhile since I went into a mania state like that. It's no fun falling apart on the job.
I did go back to work after my doctor changed my med's and they gave me light duty for awhile in a different job until my med's settle in. It took me a whole month to get off my mania state and things are starting to settle down. Some people been very supportive during this episode except my old work station. Everyone is being real mum about what happen. They feel somewhat responsible for "my collaspe" because I was straddling with a whole work load and no one wanted to help out when I asked for help.
Now they're going out of their way not to upset me or they're afraid I'm upset with them and petrified that I might give them a tongue lashing. It's like being a fragile glass container. Some just avoid me in the hallways. Real skittish about what happen.
Should I make admends? It wasn't their fault. It was my illness acting up.
Or should I say.....break the ice and be frank with them?
if you really want to take the chance, explain to the boss what went on and why, but as for the others, if you weren't close enough to them to tell them you have BP do you want to do it now?