So I recently got put on Lamictal, by my own request, because I wanted a drug with less side-effects (especially one which would undo my weight-gain spree). I am currently on a dose of 100mg of Lamictal and 10mg of Olanzapine (Zypreza). Ever since I got on Lamictal I have experienced greater lucidity, an elevated mood and loss of appetite (the good kind, where I don't put everything I see into my mouth).
So this elevated mood has been getting more and more elevated. I have so much energy now that I spend most of my time walking around the city, smoking, and more alarmingly, dreaming. These day-dreams could be a reason for, not to mention a result of, my elevated mood. I imagine myself as thinner, beautiful, funny, smart and talented, with many friends and admirers. These day-dreams are getting so seriously ingrained in my mind that I find myself drifting into them even when I am in the company of other people. This is my happy place, and I want to live in this world.
Now, to get to the point of my story.
I was gifted a tiger-cub stuffed toy by my father for my second birthday, and I have had him (yes, he is a him) since then. Recently, I have taken to the habit of talking to him, imagining that he is answering back. This could be a result of the fact that I have few friends here at college and hence, no 'real' people to talk to.
Recently, I have started to get alarmed at the extent of how far I am sinking into my own imagination. Right now its still controllable, but I am wondering, how far can this go? Will I end up as one of those people you see on the street and read about in books who talk to themselves, and are clearly, alarmingly delusional? I am going to see my therapist again next week, but before that I feel like I need an answer - help, almost. I don't think this is a reason to commit myself to a psych ward at the moment, but I don't want this to grow into a situation where I have to.
Please, advice or feedback, both will be helpful :)