I do not have a job right now due to my illness.
Are you afraid because of your job? You said you are having troubles with workers on getting state health insurance, so maybe your work is scaring you? I think sometimes we all feel that people are out to get us or take our money. It's a sign of the times with all the crime and violence out there unfortunately.
It's like I have to protect myself all of the time and I never really get any peace because of my paranoia. I have to tell myself over and over and over that everything's going to be ok, and even then, I tell myself not to be to comfortable just incase something bad does happen, etc. so I can be ready for it.
I double check everything I do and say and think about every scenario in my day to day (I have even re-thought things in this email a bunch of time to make sure I don't "Jinx" myself somehow!).
It's exhausting.