Is this me?

[flydown]

I am a 20 year old female. I have had erratic uncontrollable mood swings for most of my adolescent and adult life. It seems like they come fairly frequently, a couple a month maybe. Sometimes I am WAY up, feel invincible, mildly self destructive, drive to fast, talk a lot, want to be around people, very impulsive, nothing dampens my mood etc. Last time I was in one of these moods I made one of my friends pierce my lip with an ear piercing gun and ended up with multiple holes in my lip and an infection. And then I have just as extreme down swings. I have thought about suicide many times. I cry for little to no reason, lash out at those close to me, forget to eat for days at a time. Usually my up swings only last a day or two, rarely more and my down swings last for weeks. I feel like I cant control my moods and they seem more intense than the moods of those around me. Could this be bipolar?

Normally my moods are triggered by something external, not entirely random, but it can be something as trivial as a nice day that puts me on an up swing or a off handed remark that makes me depressed. I can be dealing with a major disappointment just fine for a while and then all of a sudden fly off the handle and cry hysterically. I RARELY feel normal for any length of time.

Im not sure if this is Manic Depression or something else. Any thoughts? I could use some help.  

[Germur]

It sounds like it is bipolar to me.  However, I am not a doctor and it is best that you get evaluated by a highly qualified psychiatrist for a proper diagnoses.  He can recommend meds for you that hopfully will get you settled down.  Take care

[bastet56]

Sounds awfully familiar. Go to a psychiatrist as soon as possible - I agree with Germur and if I was you I would begin reading about BP as much as possible to educate yourself. Stay away from alcohol and drugs unless prescribed. Even caffeine may set you off if over used. Good Luck to you