I'm not surprised you feel so confused then. Your child psych was correct in what he was saying because although changing your environment won't remove your BP it does help manage it to some degree. Leaving you unmedicated was wrong though. Still, I believe that we need to focus on the present. I know stuff that happened in my past, I'm lucky that I've dealt with it and moved past it. I concentrate only on the here and now.
Medication, healthy diet, exercise (no I don't follow the last 2 ) routine and therapy. Medication alone is not always enough especially in the early stages of acceptance.
You'll get plenty of advice on here. Good luck.
I think I also believe what I do, is because my childhood psychiatrist and therapist reassured me I should be fine without medication, when I went away to college. They said getting out of the house, away from my mother, and the change of environment would be more beneficial than harmful... so I went without meds for two and a half years, until I realized I needed to reach out for help.
It's okay, I appreciate your responses and apology, no offense was taken, but the clarification helped. I am in a pretty deep funk right now, so I apologize as well. I will look into "The Kindling Effect", and let you know what I think... it sounds like it will be a good read.
I'm sorry, my meds arent working yet, thats my excuse and I'm sticking to it.....
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Please don't feel bad, I know you will though. BP is chemical, we can google and maybe one doc in a million will say its not. It is a chemical issue and that is WHY we have to take medication for it, that is why my doctor tells me I have to take meds. I have knowingly left mine untreated for 6 years because I was in major denial and this most recent episode has been my worst. It even threw in a little paranoia which I've never had, I wouldn't go in my own basement, imagine explaining that to your 4 year old kids as their adult mother. I grew up in a home w/ both of my parents, 2 siblings, they taught me how to love, I had a great childhood, lived in a good neighborhood, etc. I had nightmares when I was little, I was scared all of the time, I started drinking at age 10, pot age 12. I would have overnights at my bestfriends house 2 doors down, whose parents "didn't know" we were drinking their liquor and smoking their pot. My parents never thought their little girl would do that because we weren't that family. I was different, why because my stupid brain made me that was. Depression finally recognized age 14. BP not recognized until age 23. I had a good life but my brain wouldn't let me live it. I fully believe that it is chemical, and episodes are triggered by traumatic events, which are the envrionmental factors. I don't know if I've ever told you that before, but I just wanted you to know that I agree w/ you, and I wish I had something else to blame it on, I wish I could work it out in therapy, I want to get rid of, I hate it and I'm pissed off that I've had to live with this stupid thing in my head when my environment wasn't bad to me. If it is the environment, the what the HELL is wrong w/ me??????????????????????????????
Oh grief, just realised that last post probably sounded really abrupt! I think it's obvious that I feel quite strongly about the subject, lol.
It really is worth looking up "The Kindling Effect" though, I think you'd find it very interesting. In a nutshell it talks about how bad management of or the wrong meds or no treatment has a kindling effect on BP and the BP symptoms get worse with each "episode" or each "trauma". I used to have one of the pages bookmarked but recently sorted through them all and no longer have it otherwise I'd post a link for you.
I think the kindling effect probably fits in with what you are trying to say about environmental factors but doesn't detract from the scientific fact that BP is chemical.
Ok, so hopefully I haven't offended you honeynut, I was tired and grumpy and therefore should have waited before responding on the previous post - we're all human :-s