I have gone through the same as what most of you described, almost 10 years ago, I have done many things to ensure I won't go absolutely crazy, and for about 15 years I have been dealing with manic super bad, for 6 years now I have controlled the bipolar with no medication, just about a month ago I have fallen 3 times into what I would describe as a black hole, only seeing what your life used to be before you were trapped, and slowly you are being attacked all at once by all these things you have been controlling, then I start to forget who I am, as I emerge from the dark tunnel, it's soo scary you want to cry, I'm scared to get stuck in my brain, not sure how much longer I can prevail, my wife and I are gonna devise a temporary plan tonight, maybe she can say a word or phrase as a mental trigger, assuming I will understand it . . .
I know exactly how u feel
When I noticed I'm staring in a tunnel and it's just spiraling over and over, I try to not disqualify the good and my progress and hold into anything good. I can honestly say I do not feel it, but a I keep thinking about the positive as best I can. I am impressed that you posted in psychosis. I don't even know where I am by that point. I wish I had a better answer. I wonder if it's worth off and on too, many of us do, but try to keep faith that it is. Hang in there.
Hey, thanku, in a perfect state of nirvana is where I want to be,
for now simple things bring some happiness like my coffee,
going shopping , playing with my cat small stuff , I just wish happiness
wasent so hard to acheive, app it is for so many , the mind is a ever changing
State of emotion in which we have no control .help me get off this bipolar express to a nirvana.))::::sitting in heavan with hendrix and bob marley now
that would be nirvana .lol
Medicine was the only thing so far that has helped me. Do you take any medication? One thing I remember well is that whether I'm hypomanic or full on depressed... I have no motivation to accomplish anything. Do you feel that way?
I would say to you to relax and stop beating yourself up. Just focus on taking care of you and doing any little simple thing that brings you happiness. That's the only way I've managed to ride out my mood swings.
Feel better,
M