less sleep, lots of spending, dancing but so sad inside.

[looloo141]

For about 2 weeks now I have had lots of symptoms of hypomania, I've been very particular about my appearance, bought gifts for people that I can't afford. Lots of excess energy, non stop chatter, enjoying all the chores that I usually hate etc but there's this horrible sinking feeling in my tummy, sadness..don't know what about, but feel quite strange..very sad...but people think I'm fine because I'm holding everything together albeit in an obsessive way..
Does anyone else get like this? Just want it all to go away..

[looloo141]

Hi I like Seroquel, I have been taking it since october and I haven't had any side effects until May when it was increased to 400mg I'm hoping that the jerking, twitching and tenseness will subside soon, as its probably just reached a therapeutic level.. I struggle to differentiate between mania and mixed.. it seems that I go from hypomanic to mixed, bypassing Manic. Although when I was younger I would have episodes of depression that would last years, and intense manias..so it seems that I have swapped 1 set of symptoms for another..although in the past I was allowed AD's which I haven't had for about 5 years, that would explain the intense mania but doesn't explain the rapid cycling I have now lol

[adel_ezz]

unfortunately hypomania/mania is a nice feeling that starts euphoric that is the nice side of it, but soon send you dysphoric called mixed state. This is how things develop and in between rapid cycling. I have gone through this a few times due to an abuse of AD's. You have to get out from this like I did, I took seroquel which is a strong antimanic (though typical AP's like neurazin kills the mania more quickly than the atypical according to my experience) until you calm down smoothly.
good luck and keep well

[looloo141]

I rang our emergency doctor today, I was given a side effect drug to stop the twitching, and muscular tension and uncontrolled movements caused by an increase in my anti psychotic meds. Omg they are not good for me at all, I've taken it as directed at 1tablet per day..at nighy. It has sent me completely off my trolley! And not in a good way lol.. I've just stayed in my bedroom for the last two days as being around people has turned me into a monster! I am so irritable and agitated, but nervous and scared..my body is constantly tense and I feel as though I am pulling faces or something! I keep looking in the mirror and thinking how weird I look.. really odd and obsessing about imperfections, this is not me, I normally don't care! If I'm feeling upto it I will put some make up but that's it! Anyway the emergency doctor has given me lorazepam/ativan? To calm me the hell down. He says its a mixed state rather than the side effect med! Grrrrrr
I've got to put on my normal face tomorrow as its my dads 60th birthday, arrghhh! I can't even speak right now without it being pressured, the docs said I didn't sound right as well..but then the next min you can't shut me up!
I'm gonna just ride it out I think!
Thankyou both your understanding means so much!!
We're all in it together!!!
Hugs x

[Fizzy74]

Oh my goodness you have just described how I have been feeling.  Yes I have been putting up a front so people think I'm fine, and that is so tiring isn't it!  

I have been feeling the way you describe for a few weeks now, I hate it, but sadly I just ride with it.  I mentioned to a friend of mine who is schizophrenic the other day, mental illness is like a rollercoaster you have your ups and downs, and sometimes even though you want to get off it just keeps going around.  

I have no idea what triggered this latest episode with me, but I am having a "manic" day today.  I broke my ankle 12 weeks ago and last week completely rearranged our main bedroom!!!!  I have just done all the dishes, and washing and started tidying up the lounge and even wihtout a broken ankle I hate this!  

All I can say is take care, try and get some you time, try and talk to someone who may understand, a friend/family member.  But sadly at the end of the day you just have to ride with these feelings

Big hugs x