mixed and feeling lonley in this battle

[hell1971]

Im in a mixed episode again so my doctor tells me, I feel so overwhelmed by the uncertainty of wellness, when will it come, will it ever come. I think my husband has had enough and I dont blame him, I have been sick now for over a year with little releif. I dont think anyone around me understands how it feels to be the life of the party and then in the next breath pushing those who you love away because you feel such despair. I cant stand it much longer, I have been trialling drugs since november last year and just as I feel Im getting better wham something happens and my mood is escalating then crash one almighty fall and quite frankly i wish I wasnt here. im so inconsistant, how can I be a good mother, a good wife and a good business partner like this. I have had enough, enough, enough.

[hell1971]

He is already wanting me to change but wants to get me stable first, he wants me to try quitiepine, im seeing him again tomorrow.

[ILADVOCATE]

Well I've posted the link to all currently available mood stabilizers before:
http://www.psycheducation.org/depression/meds/moodstabilizers.htm
As per antipsychotics, one new one (works in the same way as current antipsychotics but note that everybody responds differently to each one) was just FDA approved called Saphris for both schizophrenia and bipolar. It might be time to speak to your psychiatrist about updating your medications if what you are on doesn't work.