what's the difference/Bipolar1 & 2 I was diagnoised

[Frankie46]

I wasn't told which one..I have scz/manic/personality disoders/hypomania.
I've crashed from manic> 6 months..or more..I.became sucidial..recently...it was between takin Cymbalta or buyin a bottle of methadone & mixing pills to just give my brain a permante rest...it's exhausting and overwhelming..my mom is ailing and mornings..actully daylight are  worse..
I get a new therapist on the 10 th..
all they do is send me to the hospitals even when I'm not sucidal..it's a clinic so they don't stay long and 20 mintues of therapy..not much for someone who needs extensive therapy...I'm worse now..I was molested by twins and insect by my sister..who sold me to her friends..I really hate her now more than ever..I believe cuz we're losing my Mom..I'm gttin all these feelings I have surpressed....I'm in consist worry..fear..angry..very confused..can't make decesions.(can't spell either) lol.
small tasks..is just to much for me..can't focus reading..or a simple conversation..I was thinkin about gttin off cymbalta & tryin zoloft again..it worked for me in the 90's..now w/ a surgical hysterectomy..no estrogen...& Hep _C..cant take depakote ..I blew up...
everyone is in a rush..lots of places arent takin new patients in clinics..thanks...sorry for all this rambling...  :(

[merryxmas]

BIPOLAR I has 1 or more manic episodes or mixed episodes--symptoms of both mania and depression occurring nearly everyday for at least 1 week and 1 or more major depressive episodes.  Bipolar I disorder is the most severe form of the illness, marked by extreme manic episodes.

BIPOLAR II has 1 or more depressive episodes with at least 1 hypomanic episode.  Hypomanic episodes have symptoms similar to manic episodes but are less severe, and must be clearly different from a person's non-depressed mood.

MANIA SYMPTOMS:
Increased physical and mental activity and energy
Heightened mood, exaggerated optimism, and self-confidence
Excessive irritability , aggressive behavior
Decreased need for sleep without experiencing fatigue
Racing speech, thoughts, and flight of ideas
Increased sexual drive
Reckless behavior

DEPRESSED SYMPTOMS:
Prolonged sadness and unexplained crying spells
Significant changes in appetite and sleep patterns
Irritability, anger, worry, agitation, anxiety
Pessimism, loss of energy, persistent lethargy
Feelings of guilt and worthlessness
Inability to concentrate, indicisive
Recurring thoughts of death and suicide

NOTE:
Bipolar is NOT a character flaw or sign of personal weakness.
The change in mood can last for hours, days, weeks, or months.

[ILADVOCATE]

The two vary in how much the person experiences in regards to depression. You can look on the website "Depression Central" for more information. Its difficult because sometimes anti-depressents can make mania worse. It would be hard for me to discuss mood stabilizers that might work as many mood stabilizers (and many medications in general) can affect the liver. One of the sites we have linked has a complete list of mood stabilizers that are FDA approved medications but experimental for bipolar. You could ask your psychiatrist about options you haven't tried. As for the abuse you experienced you might want to attend a support group for that. The clinic you go should be way more supportive of you. I see a psychiatrist in private practice but I know not all insurance covers that. You have a lot of issues at once and I can see its quite unnerving and you aren't recieving the support you need. This is what information I could think of. A social worker and case manager should be coordinating all of your needs but these places don't often work as they should. Try to maximize the help they can give you.