why is it...

[happywifey]

I will have good days and then everything will turn around in a quick minute... my husband an i will be fine then he'll say something or get mad and I almost instantly think I dont want to be around needing a quick escape, thinking about suicide which all and all since 8-9th grade (im now 22) off and on i do think about what would happen if i killed myself... I quickly shake the thought because I have a 3year old little boy who is my world... but my question is am i really depressed or have bipolar? why do i suddenly get all sad for no reason...

[wineandroses]

As mentioned above, if you only have the low and not the high of mania, I would guess it i depression.  I agree with the others, see a mental healthcare professional.  Perhaps a prescription for antidepressants will help.  I totally advise seeking help if you are contemplating suicide...it's not an option for you....your son needs his Mother and you can't deny him that.  I hope you get help soon.

[Xila31]

I have had the same problem since I was in 7th grade or so and I'm almost 31 now. I have a lot of trouble with suicidal thoughts and it is my husband and my kids and the thought of not seeing them anymore that stops me.

I would say see a psychiatrist and try to get some help for it.

[ILADVOCATE]

It would depend on whether you also have any mood episodes that feel elevated that is in some way above normal. That of course would be mania. However a person can also have mixed states with the down aspect of depression but the sped up quality of mania. Only a psychiatrist could provide a conclusive diagnosis but you should keep a mood tracker and print out the results for them and if you have suicidal ideations on a regular basis it would be worthwhile to see one as soon as possible as all of this is very treatable.