For about a week now I've been seeing trails in my vision.
I've suffered from anxiety and hypochondria for as long as I can remember. I've also been going through a lot of stress, with starting college and my dad was in a train accident which left his arm amputated and in a coma for weeks. He turned out to be alright, but it's still stressful.
About 6 months ago I noticed pressure behind my eye. I worried constantly about it and finally decided to go to the hospital to see if there was something wrong. Being a hypochondriac, my first thought was that I had a brain tumor. After several medical tests including a CT scan, the doctor told me I was having an anxiety attack, gave me some sort of nerve medication and I was fine the next day. He specifically told me I did not have a brain tumor, because he saw how stressed I was over it.
About a month ago I noticed the same pressure behind my eye and quickly starting worrying about it as much as I did the first time. Of course, my fear was that they missed a brain tumor. I went online to research the symptoms of a brain tumor (although I've done this a million times, and know the answer). I focused on visual changes. I constantly checked to make sure I wasn't seeing double, or blurred, etc. At the time I wasn't, but within a few days I noticed that when I'd stare at something, especially a light, my vision felt jumpy. I obsessed with this a few days, and then noticed something else. When I moved my hand in front of my eyes I'd see a trail. At first I only saw it when I was really looking for it, but the more I looked for it and thought about it the more I started seeing the trails. The more stressed I am, the more I notice them.
The fear of dying of a brain tumor is constantly on my mind. I try to tell myself that it's anxiety, but at the same time I feel like this time it could be real, just like every other time it's happened. I wish I could see a psychiatrist for my problems, but I have no insurance at the time. I do plan on visiting an eye doctor within the next few weeks, but I'm afraid I'll drive myself crazy until then. I know they can miss tumors on CT scans, and that's what I keep thinking.
I also have a bad cold, but I don't think that could affect my vision?
I want to believe it's anxiety, but with the constant thought of brain tumor on my mind, it's hard to believe that I could talk myself into physical symptoms.