AWAITING BIOPSY RESULTS

[izzynash]

last week in the UK I had my very first mammogram at the age of 44 after finding a lump in my left breast. I  am afraid to say that I found this lump 6 months ago and had convinced myself that as I had breast enlargment 5 years previous that this was just a symptom of the implant moving or ruptering!
Then a couple of weeks ago i started to get an aching pain around the lump, by the way that hadnt got any larger or changed shape, So I got my arse in gear and made an appoinment at my doctors, who on examination sent me off to the breast clinic. Even then while waiting for my call Im still convinced this is just going to be routine check and telling me to go home and not worry as it will just go away!
I get the call to the mammorgram laughing and joking with the nurse as she adjust my breasts in position and go through the motions, expecting to be sent home straight after, Im asked to take a seat in the waiting room still with my head in the clouds..Im too young for breast cancer, I have no family history so no problem!
Next I get called into the nurses office and they explain to me that they want to do a scan and if anything untoward is found then a needle will be inserted and a biopsy will be taken, of course thats excatly what happened! getting dressed Im asked to have a seat in a  room and a cup of coffee is given to me....Its at this point that I start to freak out! It suddenly dawns on me that this is more than just a lump thats going to dissapear on its own, thats when the tears came and I hadnt even been told anything yet! after a few moments two doctors came into the room and I was told that it didnt look good and that I should prepare for the worse! I had gone on my own thinking it would be something and nothing and there I was thrown in to a mind spin!!!! suddenly I was hearing words like chemo and  radiotherapy, but then confused that she also said I would have to wait untill wednesday 19th september for my  results, This wait is killing me! I cant sleep, or eat or think of anything other than cancer, Im convinced that its going to be bad news.!
After all this wittering on what I would like to know is how do I survive untill Wednesday results day without going insane with fear and worrie????? Izzy

[Njood]

my english is bad:( , but I am traying to read and understand all you wrote
I hope you get well soon,and cancer be onley abad memory. and live a long and healthy life.

I pray to Allah(GOD) and asking him to you the Health & happiness for ever.

[ncmichigan]

I'm sure your pink hair is terrific! You are definitely a braver woman than I am! I'll wear pink or my pink ribbon pins, but wouldn't consider dyeing my hair pink. (Of course, I'm 64 and really would look ridiculous with pink hair!)What a great way to raise awareness for breast cancer---you go, girl!
Wishing you all the best,
nc

[izzynash]

Thannkyou all, your words are keeping me positive!

[bluebutterfly2222]

Hi again,

Hope your surgery and recovery go smoothly, and that the nodes are negative.

You are in my thoughts--and now with pink hair! :-)

bb

[izzynash]

Trying to stay positive dyed my hair pink in aid of breast cancer october! looks good!

[ncmichigan]

I'm sure the inconclusive results were disappointing but good luck with your surgery and I'm hoping the nodes end up being negative then. Try to keep your positive attitude and fighting spirit as you go through all this. I know it's not a good "reality" right now, but it's not impossible to overcome it and end up in really good place-healthy and happy again!
Hugs to you,
nc