To Hector and all......I did write a follow up to one of my questions about my meds...and mentioned that I will be seeing Dr Barnes in CC on March 28th. I called about 2 weeks ago. Its such a long wait but know it could be longer. I just want to get the process started and then again..very worried about getting the process started. Worried about what the tests will state....what the dr will say...what more they may find.....what meds I will be on and how I will react to them and my rheum arth. If their tests will show worse than I thought? If I will even be considered for a tp cause my r/a is so severe. 1983 so 30 yrs of damage. Lots of IFS, I know..want to stop that but I'm only human.
I am not fatigued and have lots of energy so that is good.
Just wondered if there is ever a day that you dont think of cirrhosis most of the time? Its the first thing I think about when I wake up, last thing at night. Then getting paperwork ready for the hep...and other drs appts..its hard. I know I should concentrate and celebrate the present.
I had a procedure done the other day...listing my history....cancer, colitis, cirrhosis..then after those c's ...portal hypertension...varices.....the nurse kept going on going. Still hard for me to wrap my mind around it. Once I am done with the list, I am exhausted and sad. I know I am not alone..just wanted to know if this gets better at all.
Two of my drs told me...both gastros..that treatment sometimes makes the cirrhosis progress. I think of my David who had leukemia and passed away with AML within months. I am not the healthiest 63 yr old. 64 next month so a tp may not be possible. Will let Dr Barnes tell me that. Also with the stuff that goes with r./a....heart, lungs. etc. The drs are not as concerned..I think they think..well, you ARE 63...so things will happen. One dr said its too late to do anything about it now. So...he's not my dr anymore.
I wish I was stronger..people say I am...but I have no choice. I have to decide to do what is best and not just sit and hope for the best...and thats tough to do. You want things to go as they used to be...but I have to do something and its scary.
Thanks for listening. I know alot of you are going thru much worse. I think since I am widow...it gives me more ME time. I try to stay busy but....its in the back of my mind.
Hector..hope you're doing okay....thinking of you and thanks for all the good info you give to everyone. Also...to all the others who give their answers....this is the best place for info. We're so lucky to have all of you. Even the new members have enlightened me with their questions and the comments.
Paula