Advice/Help for my situation involving depression

[brunette590]

I need somoene to talk to, I thought they had sites where you could talk online or call someone about depression. Ive struggled with it for years. I dont talk to my parents about anything really because we dont get along and they just arent that helping type. i lost my job and had to move back in which is stressful and then bill collectors and medical issues. on top of it all which has hurt the worst is me and my ex we are off and on every other week, hell ignore me and then come back and things are ok, then something will **** him orr and hes gone again. its wearing on me its hurting so bad that im not worth working it out with. ive always had low self esteem, and hes just making my depression even worse, i have been crying all night because again hes left I dont know what to do, I dont want to go to a hospital i dont tihnk i would do anything i would od on pills but not like 30 prob just like 5 or 6. i know leave him blah blah its so hard im only 21 i have alot of life left it just hurts because my family is a flip flopper they will be there then just throw it back in ya face for helping. im sick to my stomach and havent stopped crying since 2pm...:/ any advice please

[Deeply_Disturbed]

Hello, I know things will get better for you. It comes and it goes. I have been a sufferer of depression for 20 yrs. sometimes seems to only get worse, but i have come ro realize alot of times its because we arent expecting it to get better (self fulfilling prophecy). 3 yrs ago my husband and i were layed off work, then conveniently both cars broke down within months, inevitably w the bad economy...we lost our house. with emotional and financially stress my husband and i, of 10 yrs. separated. I moved back in w my parents and so the onset of anxiety and panic attacks resumed with the overwhwelming negative energy of the household. Life: always a struggle, slightly more challenging if u deal w a chemical imbalance. But mindpower is stronger then realized. i try to remember if i dont fight thru how will i ever get to the good stuff? Ive found it helpful to indulge in self improvement forcefully if necessary..focus on YOU, excercise, yoga, hobbies, volunteer or just reconnecting w loved ones by pouring your heart out or just listening. Force yourself to learn or do something new, all great forms of distraction also. build a spiritual connection, ive found that proverbs and psalms are Really inspiring for those suffering. The Lucinda Bassett program has also been a great help in reinventing yourself and improving your thought process. I found that a lot of times the biggest roadblock to happy:) that we have as a sufferer is ourselves, but it is a daily challenge only to be dealt with one day at a time. Altho it sure feels like it, It will not be dark forever! Message me if you want to talk! God bless

[brunette590]

I'll have to check my messages thanks! And second, I'm so sorry :( that's terrible obviously there's people in worse situations just feels like nothing will get better. And no things most likely won't work with him, I need to give up he continues the cycle of ignoring coming back ignoring coming back its not healthy and it hurts so bad. It's just hard to let go of the one person you had to talk to and can communicate with :.(. I did get a job a week ago, I just need to get back on meds I've always kinda dealt with depression but he's made it worse. Thanks for some advice and I'm really sorry I hope things get better for you!

[Liluykj]

Sorry to hear about your job. I am not under the same situation but I am also under a bad depression and can not talk to my parents. Reason being one of them is in jail and my mother is somewhere in Puerto Rico having a wonderful time and does not answer her phone. I lost my grandmother which was the only person I can talk to, and my friends well there are things that I wish not to talk to them about since all I get is God does things for a reason. I lost 2 babies in less than a year, so you can at least imagine what type of depression I am going through, After loosing my second baby, which was the baby boy, I have noticed distance with my husband. I sometimes feel as if he is cheating on me since I do not want to be intimate with him. Now in your case you might have a chance with your boyfriend if you speak to him. I don't know what state you are in, but there are some websites that you can do surveys and they pay you for them, is not much, but it can help. Also if they have AVON in your city you can try to do that until you can find a job. There are places that are always hiring, sometimes we have to take whatever we can find until the good thing comes along. Good luck. And hope things are easier for you than what they are for me.

[SilentPathway]

Hi, your situation sounds very similar to mine right now. If you would like to talk I will be sending you a private message shortly.