Bad suicidal thoughts

[Latia614]

Lately I've been having thoughts of killing myself,I want to do it so bad but the thought of my kids and hell are the only thing stopping me from doing it. Wondering if I should go and get looked at I feel like a crazy person but I'm not,just going through tough times.

[Latia614]

Thanks maybe that's my problem, maybe I need to turn back to God, this is my second time being depressed while backslidden. I pray that Hid has mercy on me.

[Latia614]

Then to top it off I've come to the conclusion that I have mental issues. For the last year I've not been myself, this whole year has been a blur. There are certain issues I've never dealt with until I started taking that stupid Zoloft.

[Latia614]

So many things, I'm in a horrible marriage and I'm trapped because I can't take care of my kids alone. No education, fat as hell and can't stop eating. I can't drive because of phobia, I just hate who I am and all of the problems are so hard to overcome. I'm at my weakest lowest point, I feel mysel breaking down mentally but I'm trying to get better, my doc referred me to a therapist but I don't have anyone to watch my kids while I go.

[BlessedButBroken]

I just read your post and I prayed for you and your family. If you practice or have ever practiced any form of religion I would suggest speaking to a priest, pastor or rabbi etc. they will not prescribe you meds but may be able to put some ideas in your heart and mind that can help you get through each day. There is a book called Jesus Calling that is helping me everyday. I believe there is also an app. God bless you.

[RainLover71]

You do require help urgently but I believe meds are the key,you just have to find the right ones,they really can make a big difference.

[nursegirl6572]

Hon, seeking professional help is about a lot more than just medicating someone.

You were suicidal, I'm sorry, but that requires more than just you trying to think positively.

Please reconsider.  It's very important for you to be evaluated, see what you're dealing with, and then discuss treatment options.  You don't HAVE to take meds, although I will tell you, they have given a lot of people their lives back.

Think about it...doesn't hurt to just have an assessment.

[Life360_Dave]

What are the tough times your going through. talking about it here will help.

[Latia614]

Thanks for your advice,I'm feeling better, but decided against seeing a "professional" all they'll do is prescribe me meds that'll make it worse once I go off of them. I'm just taking it one day at a time,trying to focus on the good and not the bad.

[nursegirl6572]

Please seek help, reach out to a professional.  There is lots of help out there, you don't have to feel like this.  Please don't wait.

Please update us!

[Anneinside]

Thank you for reaching out for help. I am glad for you that you have reasons to live. But you need help. First I would get an urgent care appt with your pdoc. Together you can decide if you need to go to the ER. If you can't get in to see your doctor then go straight to the ER for help.

[RainLover71]

You have to realize you're not always going to feel this bad,infact you will get better.Seek the help you require and remember the kids are everything.I have had some shocking days but I take it oneday at a time.

[Ashmitash27]

I have too felt like this. There's been way too many thoughts... I don't have the guts to do it... Afraid it would hurt. My fiancé is the only one keeping me here. I try to enjoy the small things... Like the sun. The scenery around me... I try to appreciate the fact that I'm on this planet.. It's hard and it's just mind over matter. If you have kids just think how their lives would turn out if u went. Get help not only to help you but to save trauma on your kids.

[DavidinLexington]

Call a suicide line as soon as possible.  We cannot in good conscience counsel you because then we could be held liable.  Call a local suicide line or go to you nearest hospital right away.