Help me please!

[Jalen1563]

Hi I am 10 years old and have been having severe depression lately.i know what caused it?or I have a pretty good idea how.it started when one of my only friends started doing Marianna.at first I thought no big deal,but then I realized how changed she was.she didn't remember any of the fun we had 3 years before,and that's when it started.i asked her what the reason was for it,and she said I have nothing else to live for.after that lately I've been having deep thoughts of suicide and I actually took my pocket knife in my hand when my parents where sleeping and fought against myself:stop the misery or stay with your lil brother? (My lil brother was born 14 months ago) and I was scared how close I came to choosing number 1.i don't want to tell my parents because they would either say I'm being stupid or they'd totally over react.i would love some advice on what to do.thank you

[UnsureMS]

Hi sweetie, things may seem tough now but you need to slow down and enjoy your childhood. You seem very intelligent and sometimes being so intelligent can cause us to grow up quicker then we need to. It also can cause us to feel alone. But you are not alone. Others have been there and done what you have. Some are still growing up with you right now. One thing I can tell you is you need to find something to put some joy in your young life. Start a positive hobby, or find sone other activity to pass your time.

You know it's crazy but just the other day on a christain radio station a young man called saying that he tried to commit sucide when he was ten, but didn't succeed. He is grateful for the life God gave him now. He said he was very intelligent and didn't have many people to feel close to. But after he didn't succeed he sought out help from a teenager who helped at a youth group at a local church. This teenager helped him find meaning in his life. Now this man is giving his testimony to lots of children and has become a doctor. God is truly amazing and wants all of us to find joy.

I don't know what your options are that you would feel comfortable with. But going to church and finding someone that can help you through this hard time could be one. Also, as they have stated above find an adult or young teen you trust and that is making good choices in their life to talk to. If you feel uncomfortable with all those options write down your emotions and get them out. But please realize you are special and not alone. One day you will be able to help others with your experiences and talking about how you overcame this. May God bless you...

[Yankeegal]

Hello! Don't act upon the way you feel. At ten years old you may have some hormonal things going on too. I'm so sorry you're afraid and scared. We all feel that at some point. It's ok, but you reaching out is the first step to getting well! You have your whole life in front of you! Never give up! Please tell your parents how you feel, or an adult you trust in the family. I've felt he less in my life too. Ask God to help you! He wants too! :) I hope you will reply and let me know how you are. I'm a nurse and I know how drugs can affect your mind. They will confuse you, and you need to be thinking clearly so you can get well! I'm praying for you!

[Bubulous]

Trust me when I say this will pass.  In saying that I will not tell you that you will never come across another situation like that.  Suicidal ideation, once planted, may always come back to haunt you.  I encourage you to think about what you may have to look forward to.  You have to keep going if not for your brother, for yourself.  I am hard headed and I have to experience things and do things that are destructive for me.  I know that I will meet people who are going to do some of the things that I used to like cutting and suicide attempts but I want to let them know that it is not necessary.  There are other ways of dealing with things that are more healthy.